\u0130NSANLARSIZ N\u018fY\u018f LAZIMSAN, D\u00dcNYA<\/p>\n
\u0130nsand\u0131r \u015feirimin
\nilki v\u0259 qurtaraca\u011f\u0131.
\n\u0130nsand\u0131r \u015feirimin
\nOdu, oca\u011f\u0131.
\n\u0130nsand\u0131r yer \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rd\u0259n \u0259z\u0259l b\u0259z\u0259ri.
\n\u0130nsand\u0131r, insand\u0131r
\n\u015eeirimin ri\u015f\u0259si, \u00f6z\u0259yi.
\n\u0130nsanlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131-
\ncavan\u0131 da, qocas\u0131 da,
\nqaras\u0131 da, sar\u0131s\u0131 da,
\n\u0130nsanlar\u0131n azad\u0131 da,
\ndusta\u011f\u0131 da,
\nnarahat \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn d\u00f6y\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcd\u00fcr,
\n\u0130nsand\u0131r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259m d\u0259, n\u0259f\u0259sim d\u0259.
\n\u0130nsand\u0131r n\u0259\u011fm\u0259m d\u0259, titr\u0259y\u0259n s\u0259sim d\u0259..
\n\u0130nsanlars\u0131z n\u0259 d\u0259niz, n\u0259 sahil, n\u0259 qaya?
\n\u0130nsanlars\u0131z n\u0259y\u0259 laz\u0131msan, d\u00fcnya?
\n1981<\/p>\n
Q\u0130BL\u018fM AT\u018f\u015eGAH OLACAQ<\/p>\n
K\u00f6lg\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fc yadd\u0131r m\u0259n\u0259.
\nHe\u00e7 k\u0259sin k\u00f6lg\u0259sind\u0259
\nyorulub qalmam\u0131\u015fam.
\nK\u00f6lg\u0259sind\u0259 itm\u0259r\u0259m he\u00e7 k\u0259sin.
\nK\u00f6lg\u0259 \u2013 s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259nl\u0259r m\u0259sk\u0259ni!
\nZ\u0259rr\u0259y\u0259m, h\u0259r n\u0259y\u0259m
\nHe\u00e7 kim\u0259 \u0259yilm\u0259r\u0259m,
\nHe\u00e7 kim\u0259 ba\u015f \u0259ym\u0259r\u0259m.
\n\u018fg\u0259r s\u0259cd\u0259 ed\u0259rs\u0259m,
\nQibl\u0259m at\u0259\u015fgah olacaq!
\nT\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr\u00fcm bu\u011fda, \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k,
\nAna s\u00fcd\u00fc\u2026
\nSu v\u0259 k\u00f6n\u00fcl at\u0259\u015fi,
\nBir d\u0259 G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f olacaq.
\n1980<\/p>\n
T\u018fKC\u018f \u015eE\u0130RL\u018fR\u0130M OXUNARSA<\/p>\n
\u015e\u00f6hr\u0259t adam\u0131 deyil\u0259m,
\n\u015e\u00f6hr\u0259t s\u0259s-k\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n bezar qalm\u0131\u015fam.
\nZorla he\u00e7 bir m\u00fckafat-filan da almam\u0131\u015fam,
\nM\u0259n d\u0259 bel\u0259, bu c\u00fcr\u0259 adamm\u0131\u015fam.
\n\u0130st\u0259mir\u0259m n\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131q, n\u0259 s\u0259da
\n\u0130st\u0259mir\u0259m birc\u0259 q\u0131r\u0131q \u015f\u00f6hr\u0259t pay\u0131m olsa da.
\n\u0130st\u0259mir\u0259m! Qalans\u0131n \u015fan-\u015f\u00f6vk\u0259t qalaqlar\u0131na.
\nT\u0259kc\u0259 \u015feirl\u0259rim oxunarsa, bu m\u0259nim s\u0259simdir,
\nPis\u0259 pis, yax\u015f\u0131ya yax\u015f\u0131 toxunarsa,
\nDaha he\u00e7 n\u0259 ist\u0259mir\u0259m, vallah b\u0259simdir.
\n1981
\nQA\u00c7IRAM<\/p>\n
Bo\u015f haylardan
\nharaylardan,
\nt\u0259mt\u0259raql\u0131
\notaqlardan, \u2013
\nsaraylardan qa\u00e7\u0131ram!
\nYersiz g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259n,
\nsaxta, yaltaq \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259n
\nqazanc g\u00fcd\u0259n,
\ns\u00f6z \u00fcy\u00fcd\u0259n
\ng\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259n qa\u00e7\u0131ram!
\n\u018fli baltal\u0131 qollardan
\ndolam-dola\u015f\u0131q yollardan,
\nbo\u015f k\u00fcyl\u0259rd\u0259n,
\nk\u0259l\u0259kl\u0259rd\u0259n qa\u00e7\u0131ram!
\nQarmalay\u0131b s\u0259ad\u0259timi
\n\u00f6zg\u0259sin\u0259 sovqat ver\u0259n,
\ns\u00fcr\u00fckl\u0259y\u0259n
\n\u00abk\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259rd\u0259n\u00bb qa\u00e7\u0131ram!
\n1980<\/p>\n
Q\u018fF\u018fS B\u00dcLB\u00dcL\u00dc<\/p>\n
\u2026Pulum olmasayd\u0131,
\nala bil\u0259rdimmi
\nbu q\u0259f\u0259s b\u00fclb\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00fc?
\nD\u00fcz bir il \u0259qd\u0259m
\nitiribmi\u015f
\n\u00e7\u0259m\u0259nini, g\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00fc.
\nBir mahir ov\u00e7unun
\n\u015fikar\u0131 b\u00fclb\u00fcl!
\nEl i\u00e7ind\u0259 sevdal\u0131 e\u015fqinin
\na\u015fkar\u0131 b\u00fclb\u00fcl!
\nU\u00e7, u\u00e7!
\nAld\u0131m bu q\u0259f\u0259si,
\na\u00e7d\u0131m bu q\u0259f\u0259si,
\nA\u00e7d\u0131m v\u0259 buraxd\u0131m s\u0259ni.
\nU\u00e7, u\u00e7!
\nGeni\u015f ormanlar yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r.
\nBaxma ki, p\u0259l\u0259ngi, aslan\u0131 var.
\nU\u00e7, u\u00e7!
\nOrmanlar bir ya\u015f\u0131l na\u011f\u0131l\u0131n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131d\u0131r\u2026
\nPulum \u00e7atd\u0131
\nbu biricik q\u0259f\u0259s azadl\u0131\u011f\u0131na.
\nV\u0259 \u0259g\u0259r,
\n\u0130\u015fdi-\u015fay\u0259d,
\npulum daha \u00e7ox olarsa,
\nonda a\u00e7\u0131b buraxacam
\nd\u00fcnyadak\u0131
\nb\u00fct\u00fcn
\nhaqs\u0131z
\nq\u0259f\u0259s d\u00fc\u00e7arlar\u0131n\u0131!<\/p>\n
1979
\n\u0130K\u0130 QOLUM<\/p>\n
D\u00fcnya ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259,
\nba\u015f\u0131m d\u00fcnyadan a\u011f\u0131r.
\nQoydum a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 qollar\u0131m \u00fcst\u0259
\nG\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, qollar\u0131ma ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011f\u0131r.
\n\u0130ki qolum iki da\u015f s\u00fctun.
\n\u0130ki qolum \u2013 ikisi d\u0259 da\u015f kimi yor\u011fun.
\n\u0130ki qolum \u2013 ikisi d\u0259 uyudular bu ya\u011fmura
\nEhe-he-he-he-he-hey!.. Venera!..
\nQollar\u0131m\u0131 ovu\u015fdur.
\nVenera! Qollar\u0131n han\u0131?
\nBir s\u0131\u011fala m\u00f6htacam.
\nVenera! Az qal\u0131b, azca qal\u0131b\u2026
\nBir az sonra,
\nqollar\u0131m\u0131n iki \u0259li,
\niki \u0259lin l\u0259l\u0259k-l\u0259l\u0259k barmaqlar\u0131
\n\u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131b-\u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131b
\nyer\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k \u2013
\nBir az sonra,
\nazca sonra
\ni\u00e7imd\u0259
\nbumbuz,
\nlal bir soyuq
\n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u0259c\u0259k.
\n1983
\nM\u0130N \u0130L SONRA<\/p>\n
G\u00f6r\u0259n
\nmin-min ill\u0259r ind\u0259n sonra
\nNeytron qorxusundan
\nmaya \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015f k\u00f6rp\u0259c\u0259l\u0259r
\nNec\u0259 n\u0259 c\u00fcr d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259c\u0259k,
\narxam\u0131zca n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r?
\nL\u00fc\u011f\u0259tl\u0259ri olacaqm\u0131?
\nL\u00fc\u011f\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259
\n\u201cm\u00fcharib\u0259\u201d,
\n\u201ce\u015falon\u201d,
\n\u201ctalon\u201d,
\n\u201cZ\u0259man\u0259t\u201d,
\n\u201c\u0259man\u0259t\u201d,
\n\u201c\u0259man\u0259t kassas\u0131\u201d
\nYaxud tutal\u0131m \u201cs\u0259br kasas\u0131\u201d \u2013 x\u00fclas\u0259,
\nb\u0259nz\u0259r daha ba\u015fqa-ba\u015fqa s\u00f6zl\u0259r
\nyurd salacaqm\u0131?
\nMin il sonrak\u0131 u\u015faqlar\u0131n
\nOyuncaqlar\u0131 olarsa,
\nOyuncaqlara ba\u015flar\u0131 aldanmazsa?
\nAldanmaq nec\u0259?!
\nG\u00f6r\u0259n
\n\u0259tli, b\u00fcz\u00fck dodaqlar\u0131
\nyen\u0259 d\u0259 sallanacaqm\u0131?
\n\u201cM\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259\u201d, \u201cAkt\u201d, \u201c\u0130nfarkt\u201d \u2013
\nY\u0259ni bel\u0259-bel\u0259 zarafat
\nGedib onlara \u00e7atmaz ki,
\nSallanmaz ki, \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u0259rind\u0259n?
\nG\u00f6r\u0259n min-min ill\u0259r
\n\u0130nd\u0259n sonrak\u0131 k\u00f6rp\u0259c\u0259l\u0259r
\nBizd\u0259n k\u00fcs\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r
\nYa \u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n?
\n1982
\nBU BALACA QIZ<\/p>\n
Bu balaca q\u0131z
\nbu balaca g\u0259lincikli
\nbu balaca q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz
\nm\u0259nd\u0259n sonra da
\nolacaq
\nBu balaca q\u0131z\u0131n k\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc ox\u015fayanlar da olacaq,
\nBu balaca q\u0131z\u0131n x\u0259trin\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259r d\u0259 olacaq,
\nBu balaca q\u0131z\u0131, sevib b\u0259y\u0259n\u0259nl\u0259r d\u0259 olacaq.
\nBu balaca q\u0131z g\u0259lin olacaq, yep-yek\u0259 ana olacaq.
\nBu balaca q\u0131z\u0131n balaca-balaca do\u011fru\u00e7u g\u0259lincikl\u0259ri olacaq.
\nEvi d\u0259 olacaq, varg\u0259l ed\u0259c\u0259k, vaxt tap\u0131nca, gizlinc\u0259 a\u011flayacaq. \u2013
\nDivarlardan le\u015fk\u0259r-le\u015fk\u0259r q\u0259m y\u00fck\u00fc, ayr\u0131l\u0131qlar boylanacaq\u2026
\nEvind\u0259, \u0259ll\u0259ri belind\u0259, bir h\u00f6km\u00fcran \u0259r d\u0259 dayanacaq,
\nBu le\u015fk\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n el\u0259 hey quylanacaq!
\nBu balaca q\u0131z, bax bel\u0259c\u0259, qar\u0131yacaq, n\u0259n\u0259 olacaq.
\nAman allah! Ba\u011f-ba\u011f\u00e7as\u0131, q\u00f6n\u00e7\u0259l\u0259ri, b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcll\u0259ri solacaq!\u2026
\nBu balaca q\u0131z\u0131n toxunmay\u0131n q\u0259lbin\u0259!
\nBir g\u00fcn, bir gec\u0259,
\n\u00f6mr\u00fcn hans\u0131sa bir astanas\u0131n\u0131n
\nhans\u0131sa bir sonuncu pill\u0259sind\u0259
\nel\u0259c\u0259
\nsonuncu d\u0259f\u0259 durub dayanacaq.
\nAstanan\u0131n ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131c\u0131nda
\nba\u015fqa g\u0259lincikli
\nba\u015fqa bir balaca q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz
\np\u0259rvan\u0259t\u0259k
\nqanad \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131b f\u0131rlanacaq\u2026<\/p>\n
AY BU ATIN Y\u00dcY\u018fN\u0130N\u0130 APARAN<\/p>\n
Ay bu at\u0131n y\u00fcy\u0259nini aparan!
\nG\u00f6rm\u00fcrs\u0259nmi t\u00fcrr\u0259 sa\u00e7lar da\u011f\u0131l\u0131bd\u0131r r\u00fczgara?
\nAy bu at\u0131n y\u0259h\u0259rini qoparan!
\nG\u00f6rm\u00fcrs\u0259nmi, alma g\u00f6zl\u0259r qal\u0131b yalvara-yalvara?<\/p>\n
Ay bu at\u0131 abdal ed\u0259n \u00e7\u00f6ll\u0259rd\u0259!
\nAllahdan qorxmad\u0131n, kimd\u0259n qorxarsan?
\nAy bu at\u0131 m\u0259\u011fmun ed\u0259n ell\u0259rd\u0259
\nB\u0259sdir bunca yand\u0131rarsan, yaxarsan.<\/p>\n
Onun q\u0259lbi s\u0259ninkind\u0259n q\u0259lbidir,
\ndar g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259yin\u0259 g\u0259libdir.
\n\u0130ndi giryan qal\u0131b, g\u00f6z\u00fc dolubdur,
\nf\u0131nx\u0131r\u0131r, ki\u015fn\u0259yir, d\u0259li olubdur.<\/p>\n
S\u0259n bu at\u0131n v\u0259fas\u0131na sata\u015fd\u0131n,
\nduyuq sald\u0131n insanlardan, a zal\u0131m!
\nYaraland\u0131, yaras\u0131na da\u015f atd\u0131n,
\nUtanmad\u0131n haqs\u0131z qandan, a zal\u0131m!<\/p>\n
Ay bu at\u0131n y\u00fcy\u0259niyl\u0259 oynayan!
\nZaval tutar, yiy\u0259sizdir, it\u0259c\u0259k!
\nAy bu at\u0131 d\u00fcz\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259 t\u0259k qoyan!
\nY\u00fcy\u0259nsizdir, ba\u015f g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb ged\u0259c\u0259k!\u2026
\n1980
\nD\u00d6YD\u00dcM QAPINI<\/p>\n
\u015e\u0259ng\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcz, \u015e\u00fcng\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcz
\nbir M\u0259ng\u00fcl\u00fcm var, bir b\u0259mb\u0259yaz g\u00fcl\u00fcm var.
\nQ\u00fcrb\u0259td\u0259n g\u0259lirdim.
\nD\u00f6yd\u00fcm qap\u0131n\u0131, utana-utana.
\nOxudum mahn\u0131m\u0131, m\u0259n yana-yana:
\n\u2013 M\u0259ng\u00fcl\u00fcm! A\u00e7 qap\u0131n\u0131, m\u0259n g\u0259lim.
\nD\u00f6\u015f\u00fcmd\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131 g\u0259tirmi\u015f\u0259m,
\nba\u015f\u0131mda t\u0259zyiq\u2026
\nBuynuzlar\u0131m ki, yoxdur?
\nOlsayd\u0131, ot yox,
\nAt g\u0259tir\u0259rdim, h\u0259yat g\u0259tir\u0259rdim.
\nAt ucal\u0131qd\u0131r, h\u0259yat \u2013 qanadl\u0131 bir na\u011f\u0131l!\u2026
\nAt g\u0259tir\u0259rdim, h\u0259yat g\u0259tir\u0259rdim.<\/p>\n
1978
\nG\u018fL B\u0130RL\u0130KD\u018f UNUDAQ<\/p>\n
\u018fll\u0259rimin i\u00e7in\u0259 a\u011flama,
\na\u011flama q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz,
\na\u011flama, can\u0131m, h\u0259yan\u0131m!
\nBilir\u0259m, yox m\u0259nd\u0259n qeyri kims\u0259y\u0259 g\u00fcman\u0131n.
\nS\u0259n\u0259 ver\u0259c\u0259yim \u2013
\nH\u0259l\u0259lik bunlard\u0131r:
\n\u00c7\u00f6r\u0259k, su, yataq\u2026
\nAnan da ola bil\u0259r\u0259m.
\nAmma n\u0259 dad\u0131n\u0131, n\u0259 qoxusunu
\nver\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m anan\u0131n
\nhe\u00e7 c\u00fcr\u0259.
\n\u0130ll\u0259rdir m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm g\u0259zir\u0259m
\nitirdiyim o tam\u0131, o duy\u011funu.
\nG\u0259l raz\u0131la\u015faq.
\nG\u0259l, k\u00f6rp\u0259 q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz!
\nG\u0259l, g\u0259l, \u00e7\u0259tin olsa da
\nG\u0259l birlikd\u0259 unudaq
\no ana qoxulu, \u2013
\no r\u0259ngb\u0259r\u0259ng,
\no \u00abyalq\u0131zl\u0131q\u00bb qorxulu \u2013
\nO buludunda, selind\u0259 bo\u011fuldu\u011fumuz,
\nO sap-sar\u0131 r\u00fczgar\u0131nda soldu\u011fumuz
\nO s\u0259mum yelli yuxular\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, q\u0131z!\u2026
\n\u2026\u00c7\u0131rp\u0131ld\u0131m qayaya, \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131ld\u0131m da\u011fa h\u0259yan olmad\u0131.
\nN\u0259 d\u0259niz e\u015fitdi, n\u0259 \u00e7ay e\u015fitdi,
\nduyan olmad\u0131.
\nQ\u0131vr\u0131m telli q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz!
\n\u018fll\u0259rimin i\u00e7ind\u0259ki q\u0131vr\u0131m telli ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r
\nK\u0259d\u0259rini anlay\u0131ram.
\nS\u0259nin d\u0259rdin \u00f6z d\u0259rdim\u0259 uy\u011fundur.
\n\u018fll\u0259rim\u0259 a\u011flama, a\u011flama q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz, a\u011flama,
\nOvuclar\u0131m onsuz da ya\u015f \u0259lind\u0259n yor\u011fundur\u2026
\nG\u0259l raz\u0131la\u015faq!
\nG\u0259l, g\u0259l, q\u0131vr\u0131m telli q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz.<\/p>\n
1983
\nM\u018fS\u018fL\u018f 1983<\/p>\n
\u201cC\u0259bri-\u00fcsul\u201d, \u201cC\u0259briyy\u0259tun\u201d. \u201c\u018fl-c\u0259br\u201d, \u201cAlqebra\u201d.
\n\u00c7\u0259tinmi\u015f, \u00e7\u0259tin. M\u0259n hara, bunlar hara?
\n\u018flq\u0259r\u0259z, \u201cC\u0259br\u201d.
\nS\u0259br el\u0259, s\u0259br.
\n\u018fvv\u0259l b\u00f6l, sonra vur, ind \u00e7\u0131x.
\n\u0130ndi d\u0259 bir-birinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l.
\n\u018fng\u0259ldir. \u0259ng\u0259l.
\nBir yandan da bu k\u0259sr!
\nN\u0259f\u0259simizi k\u0259sir!
\nH\u0259l\u0259 bu haras\u0131d\u0131r?
\nM\u0259s\u0259l\u0259nin yar\u0131s\u0131d\u0131r.
\n\u00c7ox \u015feyl\u0259ri an\u0131ram,
\ny\u00fczd\u0259 biri qanm\u0131ram.
\nBax bu 100, bu da 1.
\nY\u0259ni r\u0259q\u0259m-100, ba\u015f\u0131nda tir,
\n\u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 bir.
\nBax, bu c\u00fcr:1\/100
\nTapd\u0131m t\u0259s\u0259lli,
\nbel\u0259ymi\u015f h\u0259lli:
\nYuxar\u0131dak\u0131 \u00f6m\u00fcr,
\naltdak\u0131 qay\u011f\u0131.
\nVay s\u0259ni! He\u00e7 bilm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131ym\u0131\u015f u\u015faql\u0131q \u00e7a\u011f\u0131?..<\/p>\n
1983
\nBEL\u018f \u0130\u015eL\u018fR<\/p>\n
\u2026 \u018fvv\u0259l s\u0259n g\u0259ldin,
\nSonra bu k\u0259d\u0259r.
\n\u018fvv\u0259l s\u0259n tovlad\u0131n,
\nov\u00e7u sonradan ovlad\u0131.
\n\u018fvv\u0259l \u00f6z\u00fcl, sonra divar. \u2013
\n\u018fvv\u0259l s\u0259n ba\u015flad\u0131n,
\nsonra dedi-qodular.
\n\u018fvv\u0259l s\u0259n g\u00fcld\u00fcn,
\nindi m\u0259n.
\n\u018fvv\u0259l m\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fcm,
\nindi s\u0259n.
\nAh m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t!
\nS\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 r\u0259hm\u0259t,
\nM\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259
\n1984<\/p>\n
BO\u015eLUQ<\/p>\n
Bombo\u015f bir s\u0259ssizlik,
\nbombo\u015f\u2026
\nBo\u015fluqda n\u0259 sevgi, n\u0259 nifr\u0259t, n\u0259 s\u0259ad\u0259t, n\u0259 hiss. n\u0259 s\u0259s!
\nAtl\u0131yd\u0131m. B\u0259s han\u0131? Qam\u00e7\u0131m vard\u0131, b\u0259s han\u0131?
\nAt\u0131m siz\u0259 qals\u0131n. Qaytar\u0131n qam\u00e7\u0131m\u0131!
\nQam\u00e7\u0131lamaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m
\nbu bo\u015flu\u011fu!
\n1980<\/p>\n
G\u00d6Z\u018fLL\u0130K<\/p>\n
G\u00f6z\u0259l n\u0259dir?
\nM\u0259nd\u0259n soru\u015fard\u0131lar.
\nU\u015faq idim,
\ncavab ver\u0259rdim:
\nT\u00fck\u00fc yum\u015faq xor-xor pi\u015fik,
\nevimizin i\u00e7ind\u0259ki
\n\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcnk\u00fc
\ncuqqulu g\u0259lincikli ev-e\u015fik.
\nG\u00f6z\u0259l n\u0259dir?
\nM\u0259nd\u0259n soru\u015fard\u0131lar.
\nCavan idim,
\nbel\u0259 dedim:
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rinin odu \u015fim\u015f\u0259k,
\nenli k\u00fcr\u0259k,
\nucaboy,
\nqara telli,
\nqat\u0131r yelli bir igid.
\nB\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m, yep-yek\u0259 adam olmu\u015fam.
\nAnlad\u0131m,
\npi\u015fiyin v\u0259fas\u0131n\u0131.
\nAnlad\u0131m,
\nigidin c\u0259fas\u0131n\u0131.
\nAnlad\u0131m,
\nyalan\u00e7\u0131 g\u0259lincikli
\nyalan\u00e7\u0131 evciyimin
\nm\u00fcv\u0259qq\u0259ti s\u0259fas\u0131n\u0131.
\n\u00c7ox q\u0259rib\u0259dir, \u00e7ox q\u0259rib\u0259dir
\nYen\u0259 soru\u015fun m\u0259nd\u0259n,
\nSoru\u015fun insanlar,
\nsoru\u015fun.
\ng\u00f6z\u0259l n\u0259dir?
\nG\u00f6z\u0259l:
\nS\u0259rg\u00fcz\u0259\u015ftini tez-tez
\nG\u00f6y\u00e7\u0259k Jal\u0259m\u0259 n\u0259ql etdiyim
\nDamda ya\u015fayan Karlson.
\nG\u00f6z\u0259l:
\nParis Notrdam kils\u0259sinin Qvazimodas\u0131.
\nG\u00f6z\u0259l:
\nKozettan\u0131n oduna yanan,
\nyax\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na s\u0259d\u0259q\u0259 almayan
\nJan Valjan.
\n1979<\/p>\n
EHT\u0130YAT<\/p>\n
Vay s\u0259ni, vay, q\u0259vi ehtiyat!
\nS\u0259ninl\u0259 ya\u015famaqdan can bo\u011fazdad\u0131r.
\nYediyim, i\u00e7diyim lap z\u0259h\u0259r dad\u0131r.
\n\u018fg\u0259r ki\u015fi olsayd\u0131m, s\u0259n d\u0259 arvad\u0131m,
\ns\u0259ni tutub bo\u011fard\u0131m.
\nBacarmazsam, he\u00e7 olmazsa, bo\u015fayard\u0131m.
\nHeyf! N\u0259 m\u0259n ki\u015fiy\u0259m, n\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259n arvad.
\nS\u0259ni n\u0259 bo\u015famaq olur, n\u0259 bo\u015flamaq.
\nN\u0259 h\u0131r qan\u0131rsan, n\u0259 z\u0131r, n\u0259 d\u0259 ki, bir zat.
\nQ\u0259r\u0259z, qan\u0131m\u0131za bir z\u0259lis\u0259n, ehtiyat ha, ehtiyat!\u2026
\n1985
\nA\u00c7IQ S\u00d6HB\u018fT<\/p>\n
H\u0259kiml\u0259r alt\u0131 il oxudular.
\nH\u0259l\u0259 ki, n\u0259 Hippokrat, n\u0259 d\u0259 \u0130bn-Sina var.
\nFizikl\u0259r be\u015f il. Uza\u011f\u0131, kims\u0259 bir neytron qay\u0131rd\u0131,
\nd\u00fcnyan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131 \u00fcstd\u0259n yaman hayq\u0131rd\u0131.
\nH\u0259rifs\u0259nmi\u015f, Cordano! Ba\u015f \u00e7atlatd\u0131n,yol a\u00e7d\u0131n, anlatd\u0131n,
\nand\u0131n,
\nax\u0131rda da z\u0259ncirl\u0259nib odlarda yand\u0131n!
\nB\u0259s r\u0259ssamlar ne\u00e7\u0259 il \u00f6yr\u0259nib oxudular,
\nr\u0259ngi r\u0259ng\u0259 yaxd\u0131lar? Bilmir\u0259m.
\nT\u0259kc\u0259 bunu bilir\u0259m, he\u00e7 bir tablo \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 a\u011flam\u0131ram, g\u00fclm\u00fcr\u0259m.
\nBel\u0259, bir c\u00fcr, s\u0259rindir \u00e7\u00f6l\u00fcm\u2026
\nHeyf s\u0259n\u0259, Osman o\u011flu Pirosmani! Yaz\u0131q \u018fc\u0259mi!
\n\u018fg\u0259r ki, olmasayd\u0131 bir ayr\u0131l\u0131q, bir \u00f6l\u00fcm!\u2026
\nH\u0259, artistl\u0259r d\u0259 d\u0259rs al\u0131r, d\u00fcz d\u00f6rd il!
\nCan\u0131m, istedada n\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259llim?!
\nMeymun var ki, rejissoru, qrimi yox, kirpik vurar, q\u0259\u015f\u015f ed\u0259rs\u0259n,
\nArtist var ki, Dan\u00e7enkonu \u0259zb\u0259r bil\u0259r,
\nn\u0259 oynarsa, sinirl\u0259n\u0259rs\u0259n.
\nB\u0259s \u015fairl\u0259r? Onlar da bir c\u00fcr\u0259 \u201c\u018fhm\u0259di-biq\u0259m!\u201d
\n\u015eairliyin n\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259bi olmu\u015f, n\u0259 d\u0259rs kitab\u0131 bineyi-q\u0259dimd\u0259n.
\nEl\u0259 bel\u0259 f\u0259hmdir! Kims\u0259 bilm\u0259z bu f\u0259hm
\nhardan, nec\u0259 g\u0259libdir.
\n\u0130nt\u0259has\u0131, F\u00fczulid\u0259n sonra a\u011flayan\u0131 yoxdur, balam!
\nYan\u0131b babam\u0131z\u0131n can\u0131, \u00aboyad\u0131b x\u0259lqi \u0259fqan\u0131\u00bb.
\nSin\u0259si d\u0259rdliydi, ulduzlar yerl\u0259\u015fm\u0259di.
\n\u0130ndikil\u0259rin ulduzlusu \u00e7oxdu, balam!
\nG\u00fcn \u00e7\u0131xanda, m\u0259dhiyy\u0259l\u0259rini g\u00fcn\u0259 verirl\u0259r,
\nAx\u015fam d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259, masab\u0259yi libas\u0131nda gedib saraya girirl\u0259r.
\n\u00abToy-bayramd\u0131r bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n i\u015fl\u0259ri\u00bb,
\nAy a\u011flayan! G\u0259l b\u0259ri!\u2026
\n1983<\/p>\n
QALANLARA<\/p>\n
\u00d6l\u0259nl\u0259r vard\u0131,
\n\u00f6l\u0259nl\u0259r ki-
\nN\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 yara\u015f\u0131b,
\nn\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb \u00f6ld\u00fcl\u0259r.
\nBir vaxt d\u0259rd\u00fc-dilimi,
\nd\u00fcnyan\u0131n i\u015fl\u0259rini
\nb\u00f6l\u0259nl\u0259r vard\u0131,
\nb\u00f6l\u0259nl\u0259r ki,-
\nSonsuzluq karvan\u0131na qo\u015fub getdil\u0259r.
\n\u0130ndi qalanlar var.
\nH\u0259l\u0259l\u0259ik
\ntorpa\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fc,
\ng\u00fcn\u0259\u015f, ay,
\nd\u0259rin-d\u0259rin d\u0259ryalar
\nsizindir.
\n\u0130\u015fl\u0259diniz bol-bol,
\nist\u0259diyiniz q\u0259d\u0259r, qalanlar!
\nAx\u0131,
\nd\u0259rin-d\u0259rin d\u0259ryalara,
\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u0259,
\nAya
\nn\u0259 var?!
\n\u018fn \u0259b\u0259di yaln\u0131z onlar.<\/p>\n
1980
\nYOL GED\u0130R\u018fM<\/p>\n
Dodaqlar\u0131mda t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm.
\nB\u0259b\u0259kl\u0259rimd\u0259 \u00fcmid v\u0259 q\u00fcrur,
\n\u0130\u00e7imd\u0259 a\u011flamaq ehtiyac\u0131\u2026
\nYol gedir\u0259m, yorulanad\u0259k.<\/p>\n
Ovcumda sirr,
\nBarmaqlar\u0131mda qabar,
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimdir\u2026 var\u0131m-yoxum
\nYol gedir\u0259m, sapla\u011f\u0131ndan q\u0131r\u0131lanad\u0259k.<\/p>\n
Sa\u00e7lar\u0131mda r\u00fczgar\u0131m,
\nRuhumda ana laylas\u0131,
\nBa\u015f\u0131mda m\u0259\u011flub e\u015fqim
\nYol gedir\u0259m, sin\u0259m qaralanad\u0259k.<\/p>\n
\u00d6n\u00fcmd\u0259 silsil\u0259 da\u011flar,
\nS\u0259rt qayalar, soyuq d\u0259niz
\nQ\u0259rib canla, bu t\u0259k cana, q\u00fcrub \u00e7a\u011f\u0131
\nYol gedir\u0259m, \u00f6l\u0259ziyib saralanad\u0259k.<\/p>\n
Arxamda sarp eni\u015fl\u0259r,
\n\u00c7iynimd\u0259 G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f tayas\u0131,
\nA\u011fu\u015fumda Jal\u0259m v\u0259 titr\u0259yi\u015fim\u2026
\nYol gedir\u0259m, yol olanad\u0259k.
\n1984<\/p>\n
\u0130L\u011eIM<\/p>\n
Qar\u015f\u0131da q\u0131\u015f yuxusu, g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f ziyalar \u0259sm\u0259d\u0259,
\nQar\u015f\u0131da qu\u015f yuxusu, ruhum eyz\u0259n titr\u0259m\u0259d\u0259.
\nUzaqdan r\u0259ngl\u0259r qar\u0131\u015f\u0131r, yuxular\u0131m q\u0131m\u0131\u015f\u0131r,
\nUzaqdan bir s\u0259s q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131r, taleyimdir, ard\u0131mca qo\u015fur,
\nQar\u015f\u0131da ocaq odlan\u0131r, b\u00fct\u00fcn x\u0131rman \u00e7\u0131rt\u0131lday\u0131r,
\nQar\u015f\u0131da xaniman yan\u0131r, f\u0259rqind\u0259 yoxam, qollar\u0131m \u00e7atm\u0131r\u2026
\nUzaqdan \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc sell\u0259r apar\u0131r, gecdir, girincdir, \u0259fsus!
\nUzaqdan arzular f\u0259ryad qopar\u0131r, he\u00e7dir, bivecdir, \u0259fsus!\u2026
\n1984
\nB\u0130Z K\u0130 QU QU\u015eLARIYDIQ<\/p>\n
\u0130kimiz\u0259 bir yuva,
\n\u0130kimiz\u0259 birc\u0259 d\u0259n\u2026 B\u0259s idi.
\nQon\u015fular\u0131m\u0131z idi ya\u015f\u0131l g\u00f6ll\u0259r.
\nAmma dimdiyimiz\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131lan
\n\u00abo t\u0259k damla\u00bb
\ndem\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli imi\u015f g\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259n. B\u0259s idi.
\nBiz ki, qu qu\u015flar\u0131yd\u0131q.
\nBizim \u00f6z mahn\u0131m\u0131z vard\u0131,
\nS\u0259das\u0131na \u00fcf\u00fcql\u0259r oyanard\u0131\u2026
\nBiz vard\u0131q. Biz asimandayd\u0131q.
\nBiz buludlar\u0131 yar\u0131rd\u0131q,
\nq\u0131yy vururduq, yorulmay\u0131rd\u0131q!
\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi \u00e7\u0259tir tutub ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259
\nKimd\u0259n ki, qorunduq?
\nBiz ki, qu qu\u015flar\u0131yd\u0131q!\u2026
\nBa\u015f\u0131m\u0131z \u00abc\u0259nn\u0259t a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n\u00bb budaqlar\u0131nda,
\n\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcz \u00abX\u0259dic\u0259 \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yi\u00bb dodaqlar\u0131nda,
\ndilimiz \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 bu\u011fda duas\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fck.
\nT\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf yox idi \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259,
\nO imi\u015f deyir\u0259m g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rimiz.
\nN\u0259 d\u0259ryaz var idi, n\u0259 x\u0131rman\u0131m\u0131z,
\nAman, ov\u00e7u!!!
\n\u0130ndi, qov kimi bu bo\u015fluqda
\nHey u\u00e7ur, hey u\u00e7ar\u2026
\nG\u00fcnahs\u0131z ruhumuz, x\u0259yallar\u0131m\u0131z.
\nAh, biz ki, qu qu\u015flar\u0131yd\u0131q!?.
\n1982
\nAY LOLO<\/p>\n
Ay lolo,
\nbir ya\u011f\u0131\u015fa buland\u0131m,
\nAy lolo,
\ns\u0259rk\u0259rdan t\u0259k doland\u0131m.
\nAy lolo,
\n\u00e7\u0259k \u0259lini ba\u015f\u0131ma,
\nAy lolo,
\nHe\u00e7 a\u011flay\u0131b doland\u0131m?<\/p>\n
Ay lolo,
\nSevin\u0259ndim, g\u00fcl\u0259ndim,
\nAy lolo,
\nbir sevgiy\u0259 b\u00fcl\u0259ndim.
\nAy lolo,
\nG\u00fcl ba\u011f\u00e7am\u0131 ald\u0131lar,
\nAy lolo,
\nya\u011f\u0131\u015f olub, \u00e7il\u0259ndim.<\/p>\n
Ay lolo,
\nQurutdun bu d\u0259ryan\u0131,
\nAy lolo,
\nod han\u0131, b\u00fcryan han\u0131?
\nAy lolo,
\ntutuldu ki, g\u00f6zl\u0259rim,
\nAy lolo,
\n\u0130tirmi\u015f\u0259m d\u00fcnyan\u0131.<\/p>\n
Ay lolo,
\n\u0130ndi m\u0259n hara gedim?
\nAy lolo,
\nharam var, hara gedim?
\nAy lolo,
\nQ\u0259rib\u0259m, bir yol g\u00f6st\u0259r,
\nAy lolo,
\nHans\u0131 diyara gedim?
\n1979
\nCADUG\u018fRM\u0130\u015e BU AYRILIQ<\/p>\n
Oh tanr\u0131m! Bu ayr\u0131l\u0131q m\u0259ni d\u0259li ed\u0259c\u0259k.
\nBu ayr\u0131l\u0131q m\u0259nl\u0259 n\u0259l\u0259r etm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k?!
\nBu ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fc kordur.
\nba\u011f\u00e7as\u0131nda g\u00fcll\u0259r solur, r\u0259ngl\u0259r s\u0259ssiz pozulur, g\u00f6rm\u0259yir.
\nBu ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n qula\u011f\u0131 kard\u0131r
\nkomas\u0131n\u0131 f\u0259ryad d\u0259lir, key\u0259lmi\u015fdir, fikir verm\u0259yir.
\nDili d\u0259 lal bu ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n.
\nKilidi a\u011f\u0131r sallan\u0131b, susar, bir s\u00f6z s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259z.
\nBir qayaym\u0131\u015f bu ayr\u0131l\u0131q.
\nDim-dik baxar \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259, g\u00f6yn\u0259ml\u0259r \u0259s\u0259r eyl\u0259m\u0259z.
\n\u018fl \u00e7\u0259kib yarama incitm\u0259, tanr\u0131m!
\n\u0130\u00e7ind\u0259 viran\u0259l\u0259r varsa, s\u0259n \u00e7ox da c\u0259hd etm\u0259, tanr\u0131m!
\nBir quyuymu\u015f bu ayr\u0131l\u0131q.
\nUdub g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rimi, mat qoyub, qurudub m\u0259ni.
\nS\u0131x\u0131b o dev yuxusuna, y\u0131r\u011fay\u0131b, uyudub m\u0259ni.
\nBu y\u0131r\u011fada q\u0259hq\u0259h\u0259l\u0259r \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131\u015f olacaq,
\nBu y\u0131r\u011fada xatir\u0259l\u0259r ovum-ovum ovulacaq\u2026
\n\u2026 Bu ayr\u0131l\u0131q m\u0259nd\u0259 yarpaq-yarpaq solacaq,
\nbu ayr\u0131l\u0131q sin\u0259md\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcb torpaq olacaq.
\nOh, tanr\u0131m! Cadug\u0259rmi\u015f bu ayr\u0131l\u0131q!
\n1983
\n\u018fN \u00c7\u018fT\u0130N\u0130 B\u00d6L\u00dcNM\u018fKM\u0130\u015e<\/p>\n
\u2026Sonra o m\u0259\u015fum na\u011f\u0131la
\ns\u00fcbh\u0259 kimi birg\u0259 g\u00f6yn\u0259dik.
\nBu minvalla, bu b\u00f6y\u00fck d\u00fcnyam\u0131za
\neyni k\u0259d\u0259rimizl\u0259 eyni c\u00fcr q\u0259rib d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck\u2026
\nAh g\u00fcl\u00fcm, q\u0259ribliy\u0259 s\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 b\u0259l\u0259ds\u0259n.
\nS\u0259n he\u00e7 n\u0259yi unuda bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n!
\nOvun quzum, ovun m\u0259nim k\u00f6vr\u0259k sevgim!
\n\u00abN\u0259 g\u00fcnah\u0131, telli saz\u0131n?\u2026\u00bb
\n\u018fs\u0259n bir ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr \u0259sdi.
\nM\u0259n t\u0259slim\u0259m. Kiri s\u0259n d\u0259.
\nKiri m\u0259nim ay \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fck k\u0259d\u0259rim!
\n\u018fn ac\u0131s\u0131 \u2013
\nqoynumuzdan a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131b
\nyer\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n o qollar\u0131 unutmaqm\u0131\u015f,
\n\u018fn ac\u0131s\u0131 \u2013
\nc\u0131\u011f\u0131rlara ha\u00e7alan\u0131b
\nqar selind\u0259 \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u0259n o yollar\u0131 unutmaqm\u0131\u015f!
\nOlaca\u011fa n\u0259 hac\u0259t? Y\u0259qin bu da g\u0259r\u0259kmi\u015f.
\nN\u0259 bil\u0259ydik, n\u0259 bil\u0259ydik
\n\u018fn \u00e7\u0259tini b\u00f6l\u00fcnm\u0259kmi\u015f?!
\n1982<\/p>\n
B\u0130R G\u00dcN G\u00dcN\u018f\u015e DO\u011eARK\u018fN<\/p>\n
G\u00f6zl\u0259rimin
\np\u0259rd\u0259sind\u0259n
\nbir-bir it\u0259c\u0259k,
\nbu g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm da\u011flar,
\nbu vadil\u0259r,
\nbu \u00e7aylar.
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rimin
\np\u0259rd\u0259sind\u0259
\n\u015f\u0259f\u0259q dolu tell\u0259rini
\nbird\u0259n-bir\u0259 bitir\u0259c\u0259k,
\nh\u0259r g\u00fcn G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fd\u0259n su i\u00e7\u0259n
\nbu q\u0131z\u0131l\u0131 qayalar.
\nBir g\u00fcn
\nqara torpaq
\ng\u00f6zl\u0259rimi, m\u0259ni
\n\u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc, s\u0259n\u0259l\u0259rimi
\nbird\u0259n-bir\u0259 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259k,
\nsin\u0259md\u0259 \u015fehli-\u015fehli
\nb\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259l\u0259r bit\u0259c\u0259k.
\nBir g\u00fcn
\nh\u00fcnd\u00fcr k\u00f6p\u00fcl\u00fc
\ntorpa\u011f\u0131m \u00fcstd\u0259n
\nbir igid y\u00fcks\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k,
\nqara s\u00f6y\u00fcd h\u00f6nk\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259k,
\nbu f\u0259ryad m\u0259n\u0259 yet\u0259c\u0259k.
\nBir g\u00fcn\u2026
\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015f do\u011fark\u0259n
\n\u0259zalar\u0131m\u0131n \u0259n gec \u00f6l\u0259ni \u2013
\nuzun-uzun tell\u0259rim
\ntorpaq altdan
\nyava\u015f-yava\u015f
\n\u00fcrp\u0259\u015f\u0259c\u0259k\u2026
\n24 aprel 1983<\/p>\n
ANAM B\u00d6Y\u00dcKXANIMA<\/p>\n
U\u00e7du, u\u00e7du s\u0259ad\u0259tim, getdi \u0259ld\u0259n ibad\u0259tim,
\n\u0130tdi ilkin m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tim, g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 s\u00f6nd\u00fc h\u0259sr\u0259tim.
\nSevincim yar\u0131da qald\u0131, ba\u011f\u00e7am qap\u0131s\u0131 ba\u011fland\u0131.
\n\u00dcst\u00fcm-ba\u015f\u0131m duman oldu, buludlarlam\u0131 qaland\u0131?
\nG\u0259ldi hicran, g\u0259ldi yaman, ah, verm\u0259di o bir aman
\nBu n\u0259 g\u00fczar, allah aman, s\u0131zlar q\u0259lbimd\u0259 bir kaman.
\nH\u0259r yan soyuq, h\u0259r yan bumbuz, s\u00f6nd\u00fcm\u00fc o g\u00f6yn\u0259r ulduz?
\nOh!Anam idi g\u0259tirdim, bu ac torpa\u011fa yetirdim.
\nQara g\u00f6zl\u0259ri itirdim, z\u00fclm\u0259tl\u0259r i\u00e7r\u0259 bitirdim.
\nHicran\u0131n\u0131n ya\u015f\u0131 \u00fcstd\u0259n, m\u0259zar\u0131n\u0131n da\u015f\u0131 \u00fcstd\u0259n
\nSell\u0259m\u0259 g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131m \u00fcstd\u0259n, q\u0259brinin qar, q\u0131\u015f\u0131 \u00fcstd\u0259n
\nbigan\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259 bilmir\u0259m, d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m he\u00e7\u0259 bilmir\u0259m.
\nRuhummu kor, ya g\u00f6z\u00fcmm\u00fc, s\u00f6nd\u00fc odum, ya k\u00f6z\u00fcmm\u00fc?
\nG\u00fcn\u00fcmm\u00fc qara, \u00fcz\u00fcmm\u00fc, \u00f6mr\u00fcmd\u0259n \u0259lim \u00fcz\u00fcmm\u00fc?
\nQapayar \u0259lim \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc, yox \u00fcr\u0259yimin d\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc
\nAna!\u00d6l\u00fcm m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcmm\u00fc, ya ki, anayam, d\u00f6z\u00fcmm\u00fc?..<\/p>\n
29 yanvar 1977
\nDARIXMI\u015eAM, ANA<\/p>\n
Dar\u0131xm\u0131\u015fam ana, k\u00f6yr\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m m\u0259n
\nDar\u0131xm\u0131\u015fam, uzat \u0259lini m\u0259n\u0259
\nuzat, ana, k\u00f6nl\u00fc viran qalana.<\/p>\n
K\u00f6yr\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m ana, k\u00f6yr\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m m\u0259n
\nD\u0259mir qap\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 d\u00f6y\u0259n var ax\u0131,
\nK\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259n var, d\u0259y\u0259n var ax\u0131!<\/p>\n
\u018ffv el\u0259, \u0259fv el\u0259, ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla m\u0259ni
\nTorpa\u011f\u0131, da\u015flar\u0131 oymaq ist\u0259r\u0259m,
\nba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 dizin\u0259 qoymaq ist\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Dar\u0131xm\u0131\u015fam ana, dar\u0131xm\u0131\u015fam m\u0259n
\nTap\u015f\u0131r tanr\u0131na ki, g\u00f6t\u00fcrs\u00fcn m\u0259ni,
\no g\u0259lm\u0259z yoluna yetirsin m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n
G\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fcb torpa\u011fa yan\u0131nda qalsam,
\ndola\u015f\u0131b qoynuna solsam, saralsam \u2013
\n\u018ffv el\u0259, ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla m\u0259ni
\nDar\u0131xm\u0131\u015fam ana, dar\u0131xm\u0131\u015fam m\u0259n.
\n7 fevral, 1979
\nBAKI-T\u018fBR\u0130Z BAYATILARI<\/p>\n
Da\u011flar\u0131n da\u011f\u0131 varm\u0131\u015f,
\nQaras\u0131, a\u011f\u0131 varm\u0131\u015f.
\n\u018fl vurmay\u0131n, k\u00f6vr\u0259l\u0259r
\nBir g\u00f6z\u0259l \u00e7a\u011f\u0131 varm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n
Hisdi, bu da\u011flar\u0131nd\u0131,
\nSisdi, bu da\u011flar\u0131nd\u0131.
\nDem\u0259yin bigan\u0259di,
\nT\u00fcst\u00fc bu da\u011flar\u0131nd\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u018fzizim \u0130ran oldu,
\n\u0130ran bir dastan oldu.
\nHaqqa, imana g\u0259lin
\nBu torpaq viran oldu.<\/p>\n
N\u0259n\u0259m, na\u011f\u0131l\u0131n vard\u0131,
\ndem\u0259din, qar apard\u0131.
\n\u018fll\u0259rimi \u0259lind\u0259n
\nac\u0131 r\u00fczgar qopard\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
Vay sizi, uca da\u011flar,
\nQocadan qoca da\u011flar!
\nNiy\u0259 susub durmusuz,
\nAh\u0131 doyunca da\u011flar?\u2026<\/p>\n
Q\u0259md\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc bu can.
\n\u00dcr\u0259yim doldu \u015fan-\u015fan.
\nAnamd\u0131r, q\u0259rib \u00f6l\u00fcr
\nAman \u0259c\u0259l, bir dayan!\u2026<\/p>\n
Bu c\u0131\u011f\u0131r hayanad\u0131,
\nArazdan o yanad\u0131.
\nTanr\u0131m! Bir c\u00fct qanad ver,
\nBu qu\u015f m\u0259ni yand\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n
T\u0259briz q\u0259dim, k\u00f6hn\u0259dir,
\nCahanda bir d\u0259n\u0259dir.
\n\u018fll\u0259rim h\u0259sr\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kir
\nDa\u011f\u0131, da\u015f\u0131 g\u00f6yn\u0259dir.<\/p>\n
T\u0259brizd\u0259 day\u0131m ya\u015far,
\nR\u0259ssamd\u0131r f\u0131r\u00e7as\u0131 var.
\nR\u0259smind\u0259 r\u00fczgar \u0259s\u0259r
\nBulud a\u011flar, sel a\u015far.<\/p>\n
Torpaq cadar oldu ki!
\nYollar qabar oldu ki!
\nH\u0259sr\u0259t n\u0259 uzun \u00e7\u0259kdi
\n\u00dcr\u0259k qubar oldu ki!
\n1980
\nDAHA \u00c7A\u011eIRMA
\nM\u0259din\u0259 G\u00fclg\u00fcn\u0259<\/p>\n
Torpaq m\u0259ni tez basacaq ba\u011fr\u0131na,
\nBaxmayacaq hicran\u0131ma, a\u011fr\u0131ma.
\nO yerl\u0259r\u0259 ayaq bassan, \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rma \u2013
\n\u00c7a\u011f\u0131rma, G\u00fclg\u00fcn\u00fcm, daha \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rma,
\n\u00d6vliya G\u00fclg\u00fcn\u00fcm, g\u00fcl\u00fcm, \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rma.<\/p>\n
Bu \u00e7\u0259p\u0259rin nam\u0259l\u0259ri sel imi\u015f,
\n\u0130ki g\u00f6z\u00fcm iki yek\u0259 g\u00f6l im\u00fc\u015f.
\nBu ayr\u0131l\u0131q deyil, ba\u015fqa fel imi\u015f \u2013
\nQ\u0259hr etmi\u015f\u0259m, daha m\u0259ni \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rma,
\n\u00c7a\u011f\u0131rma, G\u00fclg\u00fcn\u00fcm, daha \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rma.<\/p>\n
Ax\u0131 m\u0259n n\u0259 deyim, bel\u0259 nax\u0131\u015fa,
\nTutub m\u0259ni ucdantutma ya\u011f\u0131\u015fa.
\n\u0130slanm\u0131\u015fam, b\u0259lk\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131\u015f y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fa? \u2013
\nFaydas\u0131 yox, g\u00f6yd\u0259kini \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rma
\n\u00c7a\u011f\u0131rma, G\u00fclg\u00fcn\u00fcm, vallah \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rma.<\/p>\n
Anam\u0131n Sabiri, K\u0259rimi orda,
\nYol \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri g\u00f6m\u00fcld\u00fc burda.
\n\u00c7atmad\u0131 qollar\u0131 bir daha yurda \u2013
\nBir n\u0259z\u0259r sal \u00f6nc\u0259 m\u0259nim ba\u011fr\u0131ma
\nQan olubdur, daha m\u0259ni \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rma.<\/p>\n
Gec\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259r, ay \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u0259r zikrimd\u0259n
\nHara y\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir bu q\u0259d\u0259r fikri m\u0259n.
\nQ\u00fcrub \u00e7a\u011f\u0131 da\u011flar qopar fikrimd\u0259n
\nKim oyanar q\u0259rib s\u0259s\u0259?\u2026 \u00c7a\u011f\u0131rma!
\nD\u00fcnya s\u0259ni e\u015fitmirs\u0259, \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rma,
\n\u00c7a\u011f\u0131rma, G\u00fclg\u00fcn\u00fcm, daha \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rma.
\n1983<\/p>\n
\u018fRK QALASINA<\/p>\n
\u018fl vurunca
\nyor\u011funluqdan
\novum-ovum t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259si
\no da\u015f qala,
\na da\u015f qala!
\nDa\u015f \u00e7\u0259p\u0259ri
\nda\u015f s\u0259brin\u0259
\nsirda\u015f qala,
\na da\u015f qala!
\nO qalan\u0131n n\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259
\nqubar\u0131 var \u2013
\nya\u011f\u0131\u015f d\u00f6y\u0259r,
\nild\u0131r\u0131mlar qam\u00e7\u0131lar,
\nyaralar, hey yaralar.
\nUca qala,
\nUca qala!
\nQocalardan qoca qala,
\nqoca qala!
\nBir vaxt d\u0259mir d\u0259bilq\u0259li,
\nBir vaxt d\u0259mir h\u0259lq\u0259li
\ndarvazandan
\nkiml\u0259r ke\u00e7\u0259, kiml\u0259r qala?!
\nUca qala,
\nuca qala!
\n\u018fl vurunca
\nyor\u011funluqdan
\nk\u00f6vr\u0259l\u0259si,
\nt\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259si
\no da\u015f qala,
\na da\u015f qala!
\nDa\u015f \u00e7\u0259p\u0259ri
\nda\u015f s\u0259brin\u0259
\nsirda\u015f qala,
\nsirda\u015f qala!
\n1980<\/p>\n
MAT QALMI\u015eAM<\/p>\n
Mat qalm\u0131\u015fam bu d\u00fcnyaya.
\nMat qalm\u0131\u015fam bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n
\nadamlar\u0131na,
\ndamlar\u0131na,
\nbacas\u0131na.
\nMat qalm\u0131\u015fam t\u00fcst\u00fcs\u00fc beynimd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xan
\n\u00fcr\u0259yimin yan\u011f\u0131s\u0131na, ac\u0131s\u0131na.
\nG\u00f6z\u0259lliy\u0259 q\u0259bir qazan,
\nnahaqq\u0131 qoyub, haqq\u0131 pozan
\nnak\u0259s, pis adamlara
\nmat qalm\u0131\u015fam.
\nTorpaqdan y\u00fcz \u0259lli tutub
\ng\u0259r\u0259ksiz bivec \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0131sba\u011fat\u0259k s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259n
\nziyankar, x\u0259bis adamlara
\nmat qalm\u0131\u015fam.
\nKi\u015fi \u0259yin-ba\u015fl\u0131,
\namma dov\u015fan \u00fcr\u0259kli,
\nt\u00fclk\u00fc k\u0259l\u0259kli
\nki\u015ficikl\u0259r\u0259
\nmat qalm\u0131\u015fam.
\nArvad d\u00f6vl\u0259tinin y\u00fck qala\u011f\u0131na ayaq bas\u0131b,
\nonun-bunun m\u0259clisind\u0259 utanmadan \u00f6z\u00fcn \u00f6y\u0259n,
\n\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n dey\u0259n,
\n\u00abbu\u011fda\u00bb s\u00f6yl\u0259yib, dar\u0131 yey\u0259n
\nki\u015fi-di\u015ficikl\u0259r\u0259 m\u0259n
\nmat qalm\u0131\u015fam.
\nAd\u0259t etmi\u015fdir dey\u0259, \u00abg\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f maskas\u0131\u00bb
\n\u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fck \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 qalanlara,
\ni\u015f x\u0259trin\u0259, g\u0259rdi\u015f x\u0259trin\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259 al\u00e7aqlara
\ntutdu-tutmad\u0131 \u0259l \u00e7alanlara,
\nal\u00e7alanlara.
\nev y\u0131xan, q\u0259lb s\u0131xan, ba\u015f aldadan
\na\u011f yalanlara
\nmat qalm\u0131\u015fam.
\nGah gizli, gah a\u015fkara h\u0259rd\u0259nbir
\nbir ah \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m.
\nYa nahaq \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m, ya haqq \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m.
\namma, \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m!
\n\u00c7\u00fcnki mat, mat, mat qalm\u0131\u015fam,
\nQ\u0131namay\u0131n, a dostlar!
\nN\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki, bu i\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259n
\nSa\u011f qalm\u0131\u015fam, salamat qalm\u0131\u015fam.
\n1981<\/p>\n
A\u011eILLIDIR \u018fM\u0130N\u018fV\u018fL\u018fR
\nM.\u018f.Sabir v\u0259 M.C\u0259lil\u0259<\/p>\n
\u2026Ey vah! \u018fmil\u0259r!
\nA\u011f\u0131ll\u0131d\u0131r \u0259min\u0259v\u0259l\u0259r.
\n\u018fcn\u0259bic\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r\u0131q, \u0259cn\u0259bi!
\n\u00d6l\u00fcl\u0259rimizl\u0259 \u0259r\u0259bc\u0259,
\ndiril\u0259rimizl\u0259\u2026 rusca!
\nBildik, bilm\u0259dik, n\u0259 g\u0259ldi:
\ncinc\u0259, \u0259cinn\u0259c\u0259, \u0259cn\u0259bi-q\u0259riban\u0259c\u0259!
\nYar\u0131\u015f\u0131r\u0131q, \u0259mil\u0259r!
\n\u2026 Moltan\u0131y\u0131q. Moltan\u0131!
\nAy alan! Bir hikm\u0259tli \u00abDil a\u011fac\u0131\u00bb sat\u0131ram!
\nDurma o\u011ful!!! G\u0259tir, g\u0259tir! G\u0259tir bura \u0259lind\u0259ki baltan\u0131!
\nS\u0259n vur, m\u0259n y\u0131x\u0131m! S\u0259n bir yandan, m\u0259n bir yandan.
\nQ\u0259hq\u0259h\u0259! \u00abAnam\u0131n kitab\u0131\u00bb a\u011flamaqda,
\nBa\u015f g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc xanimandan.
\nYaz\u0131q siz\u0259, \u00f6l\u00fcl\u0259r!
\nDiril\u0259r, ke\u00e7in\u0259rl\u0259r.
\nDiril\u0259rin yan\u0131ndad\u0131r t\u0259rc\u00fcman\u0131, dilmanc\u0131.
\nAy satan, ey! Qeyr\u0259t al\u0131ram,
\nVar\u0131nd\u0131sa,
\ns\u0259n vicdan\u0131n,
\nbir damc\u0131!\u2026
\n1985
\nQ\u018fHR OLASIZ<\/p>\n
Siz,
\nK\u00fcl\u0259k,
\nK\u0259s\u0259kl\u0259r!
\nBald\u0131r\u011fanlar!
\nA qudur\u011fanlar!
\n\u0130p\u0259k yor\u011fanl\u0131lar!
\nQ\u0259hr olas\u0131z, har\u0131nlar!
\nQ\u0259hr olas\u0131z, tox qar\u0131nlar!
\nQ\u0259hr olas\u0131z, ba\u011fl\u0131 qap\u0131lar!\u2026
\nQ\u0259hr olas\u0131z, qupquru \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131lar!
\nQ\u0259hr olas\u0131z, ey\u015f-i\u015fr\u0259tli otaqlar!
\nQ\u0259hr olas\u0131z, t\u00fclk\u00fcquyruq yaltaqlar!
\nQ\u0259hr olas\u0131z, ay a\u011fac\u0131 \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f yarpaqlar!\u2026
\nQ\u0259hr olas\u0131z, g\u00fcn\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259t, solmu\u015f varaqlar!\u2026
\nQ\u0259hr olas\u0131z, siz, bo\u011faz\u0131 xirtd\u0259y\u0259c\u0259n x\u0131ltal\u0131lar!
\nQ\u0259hr olas\u0131z, yol\u00e7ular \u2013 t\u00f6vc\u00fc y\u0131\u011fan \u0259ll\u0259ri baltal\u0131lar!
\nQ\u0259hr olas\u0131z, ba\u011f\u0131, ba\u011fat\u0131, evi-e\u015fiyi, yeri, yurdu, b\u0259rbadlar!
\nQ\u0259hr olas\u0131z, ay bac\u0131lar, yalq\u0131z cavan, k\u00f6m\u0259ksiz, \u0259rsiz arvadlar!\u2026
\n1980
\nA B\u0130RC\u018f BA\u015e, \u0130K\u0130C\u018f AYAQ YOLDA\u015e<\/p>\n
M\u0259nim a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131
\nm\u0259nim ayaqlar\u0131m \u00e7\u0259kir
\nAyaqlar\u0131m n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kir, \u00f6z\u00fc \u00e7\u0259kir, \u00f6z\u00fc bilir.
\nM\u0259nim g\u00fczar\u0131m\u0131n \u00e7\u0259rxini
\nm\u0259nim ba\u015f\u0131m h\u0259rl\u0259yir.
\nBa\u015f\u0131m n\u0259 h\u0259rl\u0259yir, \u00f6z\u00fc h\u0259rl\u0259yir, \u00f6z\u00fc bilir.
\nRahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131na toxunmur ki, he\u00e7 k\u0259sin?
\nB\u0259s bu m\u0131rtham\u0131rt, q\u0131rthaq\u0131rt nak\u0259sin
\nn\u0259 i\u015fin\u0259, n\u0259 vecin\u0259,
\nayaqlar\u0131m\u0131 da\u015flarm\u0131 \u0259zir,
\nya hamar yollar \u0259zizl\u0259yir?
\nAt\u0131b bir g\u00fcnl\u00fcy\u0259 qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131, fikirl\u0259rimi
\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm:
\nGec\u0259, g\u00fcnd\u00fcz
\na \u00f6zg\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyin\u0259 narahatlanan,
\na pax\u0131ll\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan partlayan!
\nA birc\u0259 ba\u015f, ikic\u0259 ayaq yolda\u015f!
\nM\u0259n \u00f6z y\u00fck\u00fcm\u00fc zorla \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m,
\ns\u0259n \u00f6zg\u0259 y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc g\u0259zdirirs\u0259n n\u0259 sayaq, yolda\u015f?!
\n1980
\n\u00d6Z ARAMIZDA QALSIN
\n(Silsil\u0259)<\/p>\n
1
\nOnda ki
\nG\u0259da dar\u011faland\u0131,
\nKe\u00e7\u0259l daraqland\u0131.
\nS\u0259r\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259 qar\u011faland\u0131,
\nQalan i\u015fl\u0259r yaland\u0131,
\nG\u00fcn ayd\u0131n, dostlar!<\/p>\n
2
\n\u2026Pusur, yey\u0131r. Qusur, yeyir.
\nYeyir, s\u00f6y\u00fcr. S\u00f6y\u00fcr, kiriyir.
\nB\u0259nd olma, quzu bala!
\nQurdun i\u015fi bel\u0259dir \u2013
\nTox olanda g\u0259rn\u0259\u015fir,
\nAc olanda d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr.<\/p>\n
3
\n\u2026Qurda da a\u011flamaq g\u0259r\u0259k.
\nG\u0259r\u0259k bunu da dey\u0259k:
\nBu \u2013 qurtdu,
\nBu \u2013 qurtdudu.
\nQurtdu qurdu qurutdu.<\/p>\n
4
\n\u2026Dad, amand\u0131!
\n\u00dc\u00e7 c\u00fcr ki\u015fi yamand\u0131:
\nYalaq, satq\u0131n, a\u011fciy\u0259r.
\nZ\u0259f\u0259r huy!\u2026 S\u0259f\u0259r huy!\u2026
\nQula\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 k\u0259s\u0259r\u0259m \u2013
\nSalam alsaz bunlardan,
\nBu c\u00fcr\u0259 m\u0259lunlardan!<\/p>\n
5
\n\u2026 Bu g\u00f6l qur-qur qurulday\u0131rm\u0131\u015f.
\nBu g\u00f6l \u00f6rd\u0259kl\u0259rl\u0259 qaz a\u011fan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f,
\nBir d\u0259 qurqur qurba\u011fan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f!
\nQalanlar\u0131?
\nQalanlar\u0131 d\u0259mad\u0259m qubarlan\u0131rm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n
6
\n\u2026 Biri bax\u0131r d\u00f6\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 \u2013
\nOrdenl\u0259rin y\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259,
\nD\u00f6y\u00fcr d\u00f6\u015f\u00fcn\u0259-d\u00f6\u015f\u00fcn\u0259.
\nBiri bax\u0131r d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259,
\nQal\u0131r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259-d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259<\/p>\n
7
\n\u2026Kor-koran\u0259 ax\u0131nd\u0131r, filank\u0259sin guruhuna
\nBunun vurhavuruna, onun gurhaguruna!
\nBir salavat da \u00e7\u0259kin,
\nbu yetimin ruhuna.<\/p>\n
8
\n\u2026A holavar, holavar!
\n\u0130yirminci \u0259srd\u0259 bunu bilm\u0259y\u0259 n\u0259 var?
\nElm.Tabaq.S\u0131\u011far?
\nM\u00fc\u0259llim.Tamah.S\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015far?!
\nOvuc i\u00e7i kimi ayd\u0131nd\u0131r i\u015fl\u0259r.
\nM\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259slik \u0259rim\u0259d\u0259\u2026
\nBel\u0259 gets\u0259 m\u0259hv olacaq elmimiz.
\nQ\u0131s\u0131lacaq dilimiz.
\nAy \u00f6yr\u0259d\u0259n azar\u0131n da yeri var,
\nBezar\u0131n da \u00f6z yeri!<\/p>\n
9
\nO da yaman \u00abO\u00bb-dur, ha!
\nG\u00f6z d\u0259ym\u0259sin oddur, ha!
\nKitablar\u0131 \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259,
\n\u00abSex ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131\u00bb y\u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259.
\nQar\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r, qura\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r,
\nCala\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r, yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r.
\nX\u0131rda-x\u0131rda t\u00f6k\u00fcr,
\nb\u00fct\u00f6v-b\u00fct\u00f6v \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131r.
\n\u0130\u015find\u0259 ol, ay qa\u011fam!
\nM\u0259qamd\u0131r, m\u0259qam!<\/p>\n
10
\n\u2026Bu da ki, budu,
\nBa\u011fr\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fc ba\u011fl\u0131ca durdu.
\nAd\u0131 H\u0259yad\u0131, l\u0259q\u0259bi T\u0259kdin.
\nNa\u011f\u0131llar\u0131 var, bir ev\u0259 s\u0131\u011fmaz.
\nKibrit qutusu bir kitab \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn
\nK\u0259d\u0259ri, q\u0259mi g\u00f6y\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fmaz.
\nN\u0259n\u0259n \u00f6ls\u00fcn, a T\u0259kdin!
\nNiy\u0259 dinm\u0259din?!<\/p>\n
11
\n\u2026Si\u00e7an pi\u015fikd\u0259n, pi\u015fik n\u0259v\u0259d\u0259n\u2026
\nTurp \u00e7\u0131xaracaqm\u0131\u015f, dem\u0259 ortadan.
\nS\u0259n m\u0259nd\u0259n, m\u0259n s\u0259nd\u0259n!
\nYun q\u0131rxar\u0131q biz, bir yumurtadan!<\/p>\n
12
\n\u2026 \u018fvv\u0259l yolda\u015f oldu.
\nX\u0131s\u0131n-x\u0131s\u0131n\u2026
\nBa\u015f yedi, ba\u015f oldu.<\/p>\n
13
\n\u2026 F\u0259rqi \u00e7oxdur milyon\u00e7uyla dil\u0259n\u00e7inin.
\nM\u0259nim l\u0259hc\u0259ml\u0259 des\u0259k, yol\u00e7unun.
\nAmma!
\nF\u0259rqi yoxdur dil\u0259n\u00e7id\u0259n,
\nyol\u00e7uluqla \u00f6z\u00fcl tutan milyon\u00e7unun.<\/p>\n
14
\n\u2026 Deyimmi kim eyl\u0259di?
\nQolu g\u00fccl\u00fc eyl\u0259di.
\nOrtaya \u00e7\u0131xs\u0131n dey\u0259,
\n\u00e7ox-\u00e7ox isa-musan\u0131
\nyerl\u0259 yeksan eyl\u0259di.<\/p>\n
15
\n\u2026 G\u00f6rc\u0259yin yan qa\u00e7\u0131r fa\u011f\u0131r
\nR\u0259isinin \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n z\u0259h\u0259r v\u0259 z\u0259qqum ya\u011f\u0131r.<\/p>\n
16
\nBo\u011fa bils\u0259ydi \u0259g\u0259r nam\u0259rd \u0259k\u0259ni,
\n\u00e7oxdan \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131 y\u0259qin bu pill\u0259k\u0259ni.<\/p>\n
17
\n\u2026 Ah, ka\u015f ki\u015fi olayd\u0131m!
\nO ki\u015fini s\u0131x\u0131b divara
\nki\u015fi kimi ba\u015fa salayd\u0131m:
\n\u2013 Ki\u015fi ol, ki\u015fi!
\nKi\u015finin n\u0259 i\u015fin\u0259 bir qad\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcy\u00fcd\u0259?
\nYerim\u0259 qar\u011fa yeri\u015fi \u2013
\nqar\u011fan\u0131n qarqar\u0131 da m\u0259lum, dediyi d\u0259.
\nQar\u011fan\u0131n yuvas\u0131 da m\u0259lum, yediyi d\u0259.<\/p>\n
18
\n\u2026O m\u0259n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n k\u0259sildi,
\na\u011fl\u0131m onu d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n bilm\u0259di.
\nNurdan kas\u0131b adamm\u0131\u015f.
\nN\u0259 saya sald\u0131m, n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, n\u0259 dindim.
\nSad\u0259c\u0259 varl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan iyr\u0259ndim.<\/p>\n
19
\n\u2026Evin y\u0131x\u0131ls\u0131n, a qara yaxan!
\nBu qara r\u0259ngi hardan alm\u0131san?
\nTutdu, tutmad\u0131, qara yax\u0131rsan,
\nEl\u0259 bir ucdan qaralay\u0131rsan.
\nBir g\u00fcn d\u00f6.\u0259c\u0259k \u0259lim\u0259 yaxan,
\nNam\u0259rd q\u0131z\u0131d\u0131r al\u00e7aqdan qorxan!
\nQara donunu c\u0131rmalayacam,
\nG\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb s\u0259ni yer\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rpacam!
\nQoy d\u0259rs als\u0131nlar k\u00f6p\u0259k qar\u0131lar,
\nS\u0259nin t\u0259k bivec qaraquralar.
\nQ\u0131namayln siz, yax\u00e7\u0131 adamlar,
\nQaraquralar yaman yorurlar.<\/p>\n
20
\n\u2026 \u00dcst-ba\u015flar\u0131 bir, \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259ri bir.
\nFikirl\u0259ri bir, dil\u0259kl\u0259ri bir.
\nBiri \u0130nkir, biri Minkir.
\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259n ba\u015flar g\u00f6r\u00fcn n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kir.<\/p>\n
21
\n\u2026Ba\u015fdan ba\u015fa al\u0259ms\u0259n,
\nAl\u0259mi kor ey\u0259mis\u0259n.<\/p>\n
22
\n\u2026 q\u0259rars\u0131z qald\u0131, q\u0259rars\u0131z
\nQ\u0259rarl\u0131 qanunlar dola\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda.
\nH\u00f6km\u00fcn\u00fc verir bir b\u00f6c\u0259k,
\nM\u0259hbusuymu\u015f n\u0259h\u0259ng p\u0259l\u0259ng.<\/p>\n
23
\nLal, kar, s\u0259ssiz m\u0259zar\u2026
\nHam\u0131s\u0131 s\u00fcr-s\u00fcm\u00fck y\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131.
\nH\u0259, indi tap bu \u00f6l\u00fcl\u0259rin i\u00e7ind\u0259n
\nHans\u0131 katib, hans\u0131 s\u0259drdi.
\nHans\u0131 xitam verir, hans\u0131 \u0259mr edir.
\nHam\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n k\u0259ll\u0259si eyni \u2013
\nHam\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n di\u015fl\u0259ri g\u00fcl\u00fcr.
\nHam\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n torpaq olub, \u0259ll\u0259\u015f\u0259n beyni!\u2026<\/p>\n
24
\n\u2026G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn iki damla ya\u015f gil\u0259si
\nBiri s\u0259ns\u0259n \u2013 haqs\u0131zl\u0131q.
\nBiri nam\u0259rd t\u0259l\u0259si!<\/p>\n
25
\n\u2026Zurna \u00e7almay\u0131n, xatir\u0259l\u0259r.
\nA\u011fl\u0131m\u0131 ba\u015f\u0259mdan almay\u0131n, xatir\u0259l\u0259r!
\nOnsuz da yerd\u0259 qalan bo\u015f qafad\u0131r.
\nQafa da n\u0259 qafa! D\u0259lik-de\u015fik, yara-yarad\u0131r.,<\/p>\n
26
\n.. .N\u0259 dev var, n\u0259 \u015fah var, n\u0259 c\u0131rtdan.
\nEl\u0259-bel\u0259, na\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f\u2026
\nYax\u015f\u0131 ki, o na\u011f\u0131llar
\nNa\u011f\u0131l kimi qal\u0131bm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n
27
\n\u2026Na\u011f\u0131llardan bu \u00fcz\u0259 t\u0259kc\u0259 c\u0259llad \u00e7\u0131x\u0131bm\u0131\u015f
\nYaln\u0131z \u00e7\u0259km\u0259l\u0259rini o \u00fczd\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131bm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n
28
\n\u2026\u00d6ld\u00fcn. Azadsan dem\u0259k.
\nO ruh, o s\u0259n.
\nU\u00e7 dostum, u\u00e7! U\u00e7, hara ist\u0259yirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n
29
\nAh\u0131m \u2013 qeyr\u0259td\u0259ndi
\nG\u00fcnah\u0131m \u2013 nifr\u0259td\u0259n.
\nN\u0259 deyib, n\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ms\u0259
\nElim\u0259, obama
\nm\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259td\u0259ndi.
\nS\u018fN\u018f BORCLUYAM, ANA!<\/p>\n
Bu yaz\u0131lar, s\u0259tirl\u0259r, bu d\u00fcz\u00fcml\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259n
\nS\u0259n\u0259 borcluyam, ana!
\nSevgil\u0259r, titr\u0259yi\u015fl\u0259r, t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259n
\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm ayaqlar\u0131na!
\nDamar\u0131ndan, qan\u0131ndan, \u0259zandan n\u0259\u015f\u0259t ald\u0131m,
\nS\u0259n\u0259 borcluyam, ana!
\nYax\u015f\u0131 n\u0259 varsa canda, can\u0131ndan v\u00fcs\u0259t ald\u0131m,
\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm ayaqlar\u0131na!
\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015fim d\u0259, tanr\u0131m da, e\u015fqim, odum da s\u0259ndin,
\nS\u0259n\u0259 borcluyam, ana!
\nG\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131m, yaradan\u0131m, s\u0259cd\u0259m, duam da s\u0259ndin,
\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm ayaqlar\u0131na!
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnyam s\u0259n idin, s\u0259ndin gec\u0259m, g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fcm
\nS\u0259n\u0259 borcluyam, ana!
\nYen\u0259 s\u0259ns\u0259n, yaln\u0131z s\u0259n, \u00e7\u0259m\u0259n, \u00e7\u00f6l, \u0259trim, d\u00fcz\u00fcm,
\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm ayaqlar\u0131na!
\nS\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259sr edir\u0259m m\u0259n, bu kitab-h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131,
\nO g\u00f6y\u0259r\u00e7in ruhuna
\nS\u0259pib s\u0259p\u0259l\u0259yir\u0259m, \u0259n \u015firin bayat\u0131m\u0131,
\nS\u0259n\u0259 borcluyam ana!
\nDolan\u0131m, f\u0259da olum, o qara torpa\u011f\u0131na,
\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm ayaqlar\u0131na!
\nS\u0259rilim, m\u0259lh\u0259m olum, \u00fcr\u0259yinin da\u011f\u0131na!..
\nS\u0259n\u0259 borcluyam ana!
\nYOL UZUNU ARZULAR<\/p>\n
Nolayd\u0131,
\nk\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rin ad\u0131 \u2013 Lal\u0259, N\u0259rgiz, B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259,
\nV\u0259t\u0259n, M\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t, Sevgil\u0259r; Od v\u0259 At\u0259\u015f olayd\u0131
\nb\u0259zisinin d\u0259 ad\u0131 \u2013 Nazim Hikm\u0259t, H\u0259qiq\u0259t, \u015eah X\u0259tai, S\u0259tt\u0259rxan,
\nAraz, T\u0259briz, Nisgill\u0259r; G\u00fcc v\u0259 G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f olayd\u0131,
\nk\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rin ba\u011fr\u0131na, q\u0259dim da\u015f yadda\u015f\u0131na,
\nd\u00f6ng\u0259l\u0259r\u0259, da\u015flara
\nh\u0259r ad yap\u0131\u015fmayayd\u0131, h\u0259r ad yara\u015fmayayd\u0131!
\nGec\u0259l\u0259rin qoynu
\nyaz, yay h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bel\u0259, ulduzla dolayd\u0131,
\ncilv\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 sayr\u0131\u015fayd\u0131,
\nUlduz Ay\u0131n k\u00f6ks\u00fcnd\u0259\u2026
\nAy ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259
\nbel\u0259c\u0259 salim olayd\u0131,
\n\u015f\u00f6l\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 q\u0131m\u0131\u015fayd\u0131,
\ng\u00f6zl\u0259rimiz el\u0259 t\u0259ki
\nAy-ulduz\u2026 yollar\u0131nda
\nsulana, qama\u015fayd\u0131!\u2026
\nS\u0259kil\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fc
\nya\u011f\u0131\u015fdan sonrak\u0131 t\u0259k, yuyunub t\u0259mizl\u0259n\u0259,
\n\u0131\u015f\u0131m-\u0131\u015f\u0131m i\u015f\u0131ldayayd\u0131,
\ns\u0259kil\u0259r boyu n\u0259 toz,
\nn\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r-\u00e7\u00f6p olayd\u0131,
\nel\u0259 yaln\u0131z
\nv\u0259t\u0259n ri\u015f\u0259li v\u0259l\u0259sl\u0259r,
\ns\u00f6y\u00fcdl\u0259r y\u0131r\u011falana,
\nyarpaq x\u0131\u015f\u0131ldayayd\u0131!
\nEyvanlardan
\ng\u00fcl-\u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259r, q\u00f6n\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r,
\nqol-budaqlar, yarpaqlar,
\nya\u015f\u0131ll\u0131qlar i\u015farayd\u0131,
\nya\u015f\u0131ll\u0131qlar i\u015fart\u0131s\u0131
\ndam boyu, divar boyu
\nsarma\u015fayd\u0131, a\u015fayd\u0131,
\nah ka\u015f b\u00fct\u00fcn amallar
\nyurd yeri, yurd qeyr\u0259ti
\nbu e\u015fql\u0259 ya\u015fayayd\u0131!
\nP\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259r
\nb\u00fcllur t\u0259kin par\u0131lt\u0131lar sa\u00e7ayd\u0131,
\n\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259,
\ntorpa\u011fa nur qar\u0131\u015fayd\u0131,
\nbir oyan\u0131\u015f titr\u0259y\u0259,
\nqollar\u0131m\u0131z, q\u00fcvv\u0259miz
\nhaqq yoluna qo\u015fayd\u0131,
\nbu oyan\u0131\u015f, bu duru\u015f
\ny\u00fcz illik m\u00fcrg\u00fcl\u0259ri
\nqat\u0131b-qat\u0131\u015fd\u0131rayd\u0131!..
\nQap\u0131lar
\ntaybatay a\u00e7\u0131q, h\u0259nd\u0259v\u0259rd\u0259 el\u0259 yaln\u0131z
\nqaranqu\u015flar, a\u011f qu\u015flar
\nqanad salm\u0131\u015f, yuva qurmu\u015f olayd\u0131,
\nn\u0259 x\u0259bis k\u00f6z, n\u0259 k\u0259c bax\u0131\u015f,
\nn\u0259 yiy\u0259siz qalan ocaq\u2026
\nn\u0259 pis qon\u015fu olayd\u0131,
\nn\u0259 yuvalar did\u0259rgini,
\nn\u0259 sin\u0259l\u0259r yaras\u0131, n\u0259 qara \u0259l,
\nn\u0259 d\u0259 qur\u015fun olayd\u0131!
\nYurd yeri,
\nyurd qeyr\u0259ti bizd\u0259n uca olayd\u0131,
\nH\u0259m heysiyy\u0259t, h\u0259m c\u00fcr\u0259t qo\u015fa yaranm\u0131\u015f olayd\u0131,
\nmeydan\u2026 meydan olayd\u0131\u2026
\nYox, yox allah! Bigan\u0259l\u0259r, nax\u0259l\u0259fl\u0259r, nak\u0259sl\u0259r yox,
\ndo\u011fulursa, insanlar\u0131n com\u0259rdl\u0259ri do\u011fulayd\u0131,
\nbir ba\u015fqa yar\u0131\u015f olayd\u0131,
\ncavan, g\u00f6z\u0259l analar o\u011fullar do\u011fayd\u0131 ki,
\no\u011fullar\u2026 o\u011ful olayd\u0131,
\nn\u0259r t\u0259kin o\u011fullar\u0131 d\u0259rd\u0259 yaram\u0131\u015f olayd\u0131!
\nTorpaq
\n\u0259cdad pay\u0131m\u0131z! Ovcumuzda qalayd\u0131 \u2013
\nikiy\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fcnm\u0259yib, iki ayr\u0131lmayayd\u0131;
\nbir n\u0259h\u0259ng g\u00f6y arabas\u0131 f\u0131rlanayd\u0131,
\na\u015f\u0131r\u0131mlar a\u015fayd\u0131, da\u015flar\u0131 a\u015f\u0131rayd\u0131,
\nbu yuxulu qorxular\u0131\u2026
\no ki var f\u0131rladayd\u0131,
\nbu \u0259tal\u0259t miras\u0131n\u0131
\nda\u011fa, da\u015fa \u00e7\u0131rpm\u0131\u015f olayd\u0131,
\nparam-par\u00e7a par\u00e7alam\u0131\u015f olayd\u0131!
\nAllah, allah,
\nq\u0259hr olas\u0131 k\u00f6ks\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259n
\nq\u00fcrb\u0259tl\u0259ri alan olayd\u0131,
\nk\u00f6n\u00fcl bihu\u015f olayd\u0131,
\nqanad \u00e7\u0131rpan, \u00e7arp\u0131\u015fan
\n\u00fcr\u0259yimiz
\nbir g\u00fcn bir qu\u015f olayd\u0131,
\n\u00f6zg\u0259 s\u0259yyah, yol\u00e7ular t\u0259k
\nbizim d\u0259 l\u0259pirl\u0259rimiz
\no taya hopmu\u015f olayd\u0131
\nNolayd\u0131, ah,
\nyuxular \u00e7in \u00e7\u0131xayd\u0131,
\ng\u00f6mg\u00f6y b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 arzular
\nn\u0259 saral\u0131b, n\u0259 d\u0259 solmu\u015f olayd\u0131,
\nb\u00fct\u00fcn ba\u011f\u00e7alar, qap\u0131lar
\nsevgi \u00e7\u0259l\u0259ngi, m\u00fcjd\u0259l\u0259r,
\ng\u00fcl-\u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259 dolmu\u015f olayd\u0131,
\nbir g\u00fcn d\u0259 bir s\u00fcbh \u00e7a\u011f\u0131
\n\u015f\u0259hid ruhlar\u2026 m\u0259zarlar
\nv\u00fcsal c\u0259ngil\u0259rind\u0259n
\nagah olmu\u015f olayd\u0131!
\n1981
\nM\u018fN\u0130 M\u018fN\u018f VERM\u018fD\u0130L\u018fR<\/p>\n
N\u0259 d\u0259rd, n\u0259 \u0259l\u0259m bildil\u0259r,
\nN\u0259 ist\u0259dim verm\u0259dil\u0259r.
\n\u018fslind\u0259 n\u0259 ist\u0259dim ki?
\nD\u00fczl\u0259ri g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259dim \u2013
\n\u00fcr\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn.
\nBir veyl k\u00fcl\u0259k ist\u0259dim \u2013
\nseyr edib, azad\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259s d\u0259rib,
\nasud\u0259 \u00f6lm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn.
\nVerm\u0259dil\u0259r.
\nQara basd\u0131 d\u00fcn\u0259n m\u0259ni.
\nG\u00f6rd\u00fcm da\u011flar s\u0131ra-s\u0131ra,
\nbuzlar\u0131 b\u00fcllur s\u0131rs\u0131ra.
\nUzatd\u0131m yanar \u0259limi
\nda\u011flar geri \u00e7\u0259kildil\u0259r,
\ns\u0131rs\u0131ralar \u0259riyib, bir-bir suya d\u00f6nd\u00fcl\u0259r.
\nYaman p\u0259rt d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc \u0259ll\u0259rim,
\nK\u00f6nl\u00fcm bir k\u00f6n\u00fcl ist\u0259di
\nk\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fc kiritm\u0259y\u0259.
\nQuyu suyu ist\u0259di
\nbu susuz ciy\u0259rim\u0259
\nqurtum-qurtum \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259.
\nBir ovuc torpaq\u2026 ist\u0259di
\nsin\u0259m il\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r
\nd\u0259rdl\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6km\u0259y\u0259!
\nVerm\u0259dil\u0259r. \u2026
\nL\u0259n\u0259t s\u0259n\u0259 kor \u015feytan,
\nyen\u0259 t\u0259r g\u0259ldi aln\u0131ma,
\nc\u00fcml\u0259-cahan \u015f\u0259yatinl\u0259r
\nyen\u0259 hardan y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar,
\ndolu\u015fdular d\u00f6rd yan\u0131ma?
\n\u00abS\u0259t\u0259lc\u0259ms\u0259n, balamcan!
\nBiz ver\u0259n yox, alan\u0131q,
\nM\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcm, biz d\u00fcnyan\u0131,
\nsar\u0131y\u0131b dolayan\u0131q!\u00bb
\ndeyib, \u00e7\u0259n\u0259mi dartd\u0131lar,
\n\u018flimd\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yim vard\u0131,
\n\u00e7\u0131rt\u0131q vurub, \u00e7\u0259pik \u00e7al\u0131b
\ntutub, \u00e7\u0259kib ald\u0131lar,
\n\u0259l\u0259k-v\u0259l\u0259k eyl\u0259yib
\nevimi da\u011f\u0131td\u0131lar,
\no ki var a\u011flatd\u0131lar.
\nBuynuzum varm\u0131\u015f dem\u0259,
\n\u00abBu ot, bu da ki ovlaq!
\nBuyur, ya\u015fa! \u2013 dedil\u0259r,
\nNa\u015f\u00fck\u00fcrl\u00fck eyl\u0259m\u0259,
\nN\u00f6\u015f\u00fcn ki, balam can\u0131,
\nadams\u0131zsan, adams\u0131z!
\nBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sal a\u015fa\u011f\u0131, otla ba\u015facan, bala!\u00bb \u2013
\ng\u00fcl\u00fcb \u0259ld\u0259n getdil\u0259r.
\nC\u0131rc\u0131nd\u0131rm\u0131\u015f \u00fcst-ba\u015f\u0131m,
\nbir az k\u0259nar \u00e7\u0259kildil\u0259r,
\nd\u00f6n\u00fcb \u00abs\u0259fil!\u00bb d\u0259 dedil\u0259r,
\nb\u0259r\u0259ldib d\u0259mb\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rin
\ndil \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b, \u0259l eyl\u0259yib
\n\u0259kildil\u0259r, getdil\u0259r.
\n\u018fl uzatd\u0131m, yalvard\u0131m,
\n\u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m hey \u2026\u2026\u2026.. qar\u0131 d\u00fcnya,
\nn\u0259yim vard\u0131 ald\u0131lar!\u2026\u2026\u2026\u2026
\nS\u0259sim yay\u0131ld\u0131 d\u0259ryaya,
\nbir avars\u0131z, s\u00fckans\u0131z
\nbir b\u0259yaz g\u0259mi g\u0259ldi,
\nAt\u0131ld\u0131m min\u0259m i\u00e7in\u0259
\n\u00e7\u0259kim havada qald\u0131! \u2013
\nM\u0259ni m\u0259n\u0259 verm\u0259dil\u0259r.
\nQ\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131 s\u0259sim \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259,
\nkims\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kib apard\u0131!..
\n\u2026 \u00dczd\u00fc qarabasmalar, vahim\u0259, r\u00f6yalar m\u0259ni.
\nXof b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc d\u00fcnyam\u0131
\nYol ist\u0259dim, at ist\u0259dim,
\nbir b\u0259yaz h\u0259yat ist\u0259dim,
\nYollar\u0131m\u0131 h\u00f6rd\u00fcl\u0259r
\nm\u0259ni m\u0259n\u0259 verm\u0259dil\u0259r.
\nM\u0259ni m\u0259nd\u0259n ald\u0131lar, m\u0259ni m\u0259n\u0259 verm\u0259dil\u0259r.
\nHey yand\u0131m, hey \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nd\u0131m,
\n\u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nd\u0131m f\u0259\u011fan eyl\u0259dim
\nVerm\u0259dil\u0259r, verm\u0259dil\u0259r,
\nm\u0259ni m\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259dil\u0259r.
\nm\u0259ni m\u0259n\u0259 verm\u0259dil\u0259r.
\n1984
\nQ\u018fF\u018fS RESPUBL\u0130KASI<\/p>\n
Kim d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb b\u00fclb\u00fcll\u0259rin q\u0259f\u0259s z\u00fclm\u00fcn\u00fc?
\nBu sar\u0131 b\u00fclb\u00fcl\u00fcn kim q\u0131r\u0131bd\u0131r k\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc?
\nKim d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb akvariumu? Akvarium d\u00f6vran\u0131n\u0131?
\nBumu yem\u0259k bollu\u011fu? G\u0259r\u0259kmidir, bu \u00abqurt-qu\u015f\u00bb?
\nhan\u0131 yosunlu sular? Bumu qurtulu\u015f?<\/p>\n
Kim d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb qara b\u0259bir \u0259sar\u0259tini?
\nHara s\u0131\u011far bu b\u0259birin zill\u0259ti? \u2013
\nM\u0259hbusa bax!\u2026 G\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n q\u0131\u011f\u0131lc\u0131m yay\u0131r,
\nEl\u0259 bax\u0131r, el\u0259 bax\u0131r, sanki dastan p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lday\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Anlad\u0131m, zavall\u0131! Anlad\u0131m, zal\u0131mm\u0131\u015f insan,
\nAnlad\u0131m, anlad\u0131m! G\u00f6t\u00fcr s\u0259n allah,
\nG\u00f6t\u00fcr g\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259n o bax\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131,
\nAx\u0131 hara da\u015f\u0131y\u0131m yalvar\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131?<\/p>\n
Yaz\u0131q, yaz\u0131q! Ya\u015f\u0131l ormanlar b\u0259yi!
\nOrmanlar\u0131n zorbas\u0131! \u2013
\n\u00c7arvadar olmu\u015f bu \u015fir, belind\u0259 it g\u0259zdirir.
\n\u015eirl\u0259ri artist ed\u0259n! Od h\u0259lq\u0259sind\u0259n ke\u00e7ir\u0259n!
\nBax o s\u0259nin \u015f\u0259nin\u0259 g\u00f6r nec\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259\u015fir;
\n\u018fl\u0259k\u00e7iy\u0259 q\u0131l verir, ni\u015fan tax\u0131l\u0131b d\u00f6\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 \u2013
\nKirpiyiyl\u0259 od g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr, od qoyur,
\nh\u0259rd\u0259n t\u0259lx\u0259klik edir,
\nBir az da burcuq yeriyir, \u00e7\u00fcnki it yal\u0131 yeyir
\nM\u0259rh\u0259ba! G\u00f6r n\u0259l\u0259r \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015f, o!
\nhe\u00e7 el\u0259 bil \u015fir deyil,
\n\u015eir \u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f, \u015fir s\u00fcd\u00fc \u0259mm\u0259mi\u015f, O!!!
\nYox, yox, bel\u0259 deyildir, yaz\u0131q zora tabedir \u2013
\nOlur ki yuxusunda yen\u0259 \u015fir kimi gedir.
\nO\u011fulsansa gir onun bu yuxusuna,
\ndavam g\u0259tir sin\u0259sin\u0259,
\nQibl\u0259n\u00fcma g\u00f6st\u0259r ona, dayan g\u00f6r\u00fcm n\u0259r\u0259sin\u0259!<\/p>\n
N\u0259dir, bu \u00abqurd o\u011flu qurd\u00bba
\nd\u0259rsmi dem\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259n?
\nT\u0259slim olmaz, yorma brat,
\nip\u0259-sapa yatmaz-yatmaz!
\nBu qurd s\u0259nin \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n
\ns\u00fcm\u00fck qapmaz, \u0259t yem\u0259z,
\nBu qurd s\u0259nin t\u0259limin\u0259
\nbirc\u0259 t\u00fck d\u0259 \u00fcrp\u0259tm\u0259z!
\nYorma, yorma!
\nGedib \u0259ld\u0259n ixtiyar\u0131 \u2026
\nBurax getsin, daha nasaz ya\u011f\u0131d\u0131r,
\nBurax getsin, \u00f6mr\u00fcn qoca \u00e7a\u011f\u0131d\u0131r\u2026<\/p>\n
Aman zal\u0131m! Kimdir bel\u0259 o p\u0259l\u0259ngi danlay\u0131r?!
\nO p\u0259l\u0259ngin g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n x\u0259lv\u0259ti ya\u015f damlay\u0131r.
\nYet\u0259r, yet\u0259r! B\u00fct\u00fcn d\u0259rdl\u0259rd\u0259n bu bet\u0259r! \u2013
\nO p\u0259l\u0259ng\u0259 birc\u0259 k\u0259r\u0259 ov olmad\u0131 insan \u00f6vlad\u0131,
\nAmma onun \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc, insan o\u011flu \u0130nsan idi, ovlad\u0131!
\nBurax o p\u0259l\u0259ngi d\u0259,
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rinin hikm\u0259ti vida \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131r\u0131r,
\nOrmanlar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u00e7a\u011fas\u0131 var, \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r.
\nM\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259t et, ver s\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131m,
\nbu yalan\u00e7\u0131 akvarium-d\u0259nizl\u0259ri,
\nAt\u0131m geni\u015f d\u0259ryalara
\nq\u0131pq\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 yaz\u0131q bal\u0131q g\u00f6zl\u0259rini.
\nBal\u0131qlar\u0131n \u00f6z xaliqi, \u00f6z xilq\u0259ti, \u00f6z heyr\u0259ti,
\nBal\u0131qlara n\u0259 laz\u0131mm\u0131\u015f,
\n\u00e7\u0131lpaq sahil qeyr\u0259ti?!\u2026
\nAx\u0131 qarda\u015f, bu b\u00fclb\u00fcl\u00fcn
\nba\u015f\u0131nda e\u015fq havas\u0131 var, s\u0131x\u0131l\u0131r,
\nQarda\u015f, ax\u0131, \u0259hd eyl\u0259yib,
\nyar yolunda n\u0259vas\u0131 var, yax\u0131l\u0131r!\u2026
\nBir qu\u015f il\u0259 bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n
\nyeri dar olmaz!
\nBurax getsin, savab eyl\u0259,
\ns\u0259nd\u0259n ona k\u0259r\u0259m olmaz, yar olmaz.<\/p>\n
Al qarda\u015f, al \u2013 b\u00fct\u00fcn fikrim q\u0259f\u0259sl\u0259rd\u0259 \u2013
\nAl bunu da, bu qu\u015fu da, qurtar xaric s\u0259sl\u0259rd\u0259n.
\nQurtar bu Q\u0131z\u0131lqu\u015fu da\u2026
\nk\u0259c v\u0259 k\u0259sif n\u0259f\u0259sl\u0259rd\u0259n!!!
\nBabal\u0131 m\u0259nim boynuma, burax Ana p\u0259l\u0259ngi,
\nd\u00f6\u015fl\u0259rind\u0259 s\u00fcd quruyur, qovrulur,
\nyaman olur p\u0259l\u0259ng c\u0259ngi!
\nT\u0259k bunu yox, t\u0259k onu yox, bo\u015fla b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259sirl\u0259ri
\nBa\u011f\u0131\u015fla s\u0259n, bo\u015fla s\u0259n,
\nrufdan \u00e7\u00f6n\u0259n yesirl\u0259ri.
\nBurax getsin, burax qarda\u015f,
\nxan\u0259l\u0259ri da\u011f\u0131m-da\u011f\u0131md\u0131r,
\no \u00fcr\u0259yin, qarda\u015f s\u0259nin, yoxsa da\u015fm\u0131, da\u011fm\u0131d\u0131r?!
\nDil-dodaqlar titr\u0259yir, \u0259ll\u0259ri nal\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r,
\n\u00c7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131r!\u2026 Q\u0259f\u0259s respublikalar\u0131 \u2026
\nH\u0259m d\u0259 daha vec\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259z Onlar daha,
\nHe\u00e7 c\u00fcr\u0259\u2026
\nQoy getsinl\u0259r, yol ver daha,
\nd\u00fcnyam\u0131z\u0131n h\u0259ll\u0259m-q\u00fcll\u0259m \u00e7a\u011f\u0131d\u0131r!\u2026
\n1986
\nT\u018fKC\u018f QORXUNU\u2026<\/p>\n
Ana laylas\u0131na bir \u015firin x\u0259yal il\u0259
\ng\u00f6zl\u0259ri mill\u0259n\u0259n k\u00f6rp\u0259l\u0259r!
\nN\u0259\u011fm\u0259sinin k\u0259d\u0259rin\u0259, d\u00fcym\u0259 dodaqlar\u0131n b\u00fcz\u00fcb
\nk\u00fcs\u00fcb k\u00f6vr\u0259l\u0259n k\u00f6rp\u0259l\u0259r!
\nLaylalar\u0131 yoxsul analar d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb qura\u015fd\u0131rm\u0131\u015flar,
\nyoxsa bilirsiz?
\nVay sizi!
\nB\u0259s ed\u0259r bildiyiniz.
\nH\u0259l\u0259lik uyuyun. Uyuyun ki,
\nBu h\u0259zin n\u0259\u011fm\u0259 \u2013 laylan\u0131z,
\nBu da sizin be\u015fik evciyiniz.
\nH\u0259l\u0259lik t\u0259k bunlard\u0131r g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259yiniz.
\nTapp\u0131r-t\u0131pp\u0131r ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131z bir azdan yer tutacaq,
\nSonra ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 \u015faqqur-\u015fuqqur oyuncaqlar qatacaq,
\nSonra paltarlar\u0131 r\u0259ngb\u0259r\u0259ng g\u0259lincikl\u0259r,
\nsonra taxta t\u00fcf\u0259ngl\u0259r,
\nsonra yum\u015faq t\u00fckl\u00fc ay\u0131lar,
\nsonra rezin k\u0259r-t\u0259n-k\u0259-l\u0259-l\u0259r\u2026
\nBel\u0259-bel\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259r.
\nAmma al\u0131\u015f\u0131n bunlara.
\nAl\u0131\u015f\u0131n v\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcn.
\nAy\u0131lar qabala\u015fa bil\u0259r \u2013
\nTorpa\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 me\u015f\u0259 bilib sava\u015fa bil\u0259r.
\nRezin k\u0259rt\u0259nk\u0259l\u0259l\u0259r z\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259 y\u00fckl\u0259n\u0259 bil\u0259r.
\nTaxta t\u00fcf\u0259nginiz l\u00fcl\u0259l\u0259n\u0259 bil\u0259r.
\nDilim varm\u0131r,
\ng\u00fcnahs\u0131z t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc sil\u0259 bil\u0259r.
\nOnda
\nKimi ya\u015fayar, kimi \u00f6l\u0259 bil\u0259r.
\nDinl\u0259yin:
\nSiz,
\ng\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn nuru!
\ng\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yin v\u00fcqar\u0131!
\n83-c\u00fc ilin u\u015faqlar\u0131!
\nAllah\u0131 tan\u0131saz da,
\ntan\u0131masaz da
\nh\u0259y\u0259tiniz\u0259
\nya\u011f\u0131\u015f da ya\u011facaq,
\nqar da dolacaq,
\nD\u00fcnya \u00f6z i\u015find\u0259 olacaq.
\nT\u0259kc\u0259 qorxu!
\nT\u0259kc\u0259 qorxunu\u2026
\nSil\u0259rsiniz \u0259lifban\u0131zdan,
\n\u00e7arm\u0131xa \u00e7\u0259k\u0259rsiz!
\nYerind\u0259
\nd\u0259yan\u0259t,
\nq\u00fcvv\u0259t,
\nc\u0259sar\u0259t \u0259k\u0259rsiz.
\nT\u0259kc\u0259 qorxu!
\nBudur m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259! Qan\u0131m\u0131za \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck y\u00fckd\u00fcr.
\nNazim \u0259mi demi\u015fk\u0259n \u2013
\nKim kimd\u0259n qorxmazsa\u2026
\nO ondan b\u00f6y\u00fckd\u00fcr!
\n1983
\nTORPAQDAN TUTUB QALXDIQ<\/p>\n
Salam, Lenin baba!
\nYa\u015f \u0259llid\u0259ndi,
\nBa\u011f\u0131\u015fla ki h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259
\nu\u015faq t\u0259biri il\u0259
\nbaba deyir\u0259m s\u0259n\u0259.
\nNeynim, s\u0259ni h\u0259b kimi
\nb\u0259l\u0259yimd\u0259n yedirdil\u0259r
\nqan, b\u0259b\u0259k v\u0259 beynim\u0259.
\n\u00d6z babam\u0131n qolu \u00e7omaql\u0131 idi,
\n\u00e7oma\u011f\u0131 g\u00fccs\u00fcz \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131;
\nDam\u0131n\u0131 k\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259r oydu,
\nBa\u011f\u00e7as\u0131nda s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r
\ns\u0259r\u00e7\u0259 yumurtas\u0131 qoydu,
\n\u00abViran\u0259 mar\u015f\u0131\u2026\u00bb il\u0259
\ng\u00f6nd\u0259rdil\u0259r ged\u0259r-g\u0259lm\u0259z\u0259.
\nBabam\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131,
\nulusunu bel\u0259
\nunutdurdular biz\u0259.
\n\u0130nt\u0259has\u0131,
\nV\u0259t\u0259nd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259n q\u00fcrb\u0259t
\nbaha ba\u015fa g\u0259ldi biz\u0259,
\nbaha ba\u015fa g\u0259ldi bizim
\nbu\u011fda \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yimiz\u0259,
\n\u00abK\u00f6\u00e7 arabas\u0131\u00bbn\u0131n\u2026 dal\u0131yca
\nyollar boyu g\u00f6y\u0259r\u0259n
\nbizim k\u00f6rp\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259rimiz\u0259!..
\n\u018fziz-x\u0259l\u0259f torunlard\u0131q,
\nEh, n\u0259 is\u0259, torpaqdan tutub, qalxd\u0131q!
\n\u0130ndi mavzoley\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m.
\n\u0130\u00e7\u0259ri girm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131m a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131r,
\nbay\u0131rda durma\u011fa ayaqlar\u0131m a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131r.
\nBurda qar s\u00fcm\u00fck kimidir,
\nN\u00f6vb\u0259 uzun, m\u0259n taq\u0259tsiz.
\nB\u0259lk\u0259 el\u0259 burdan ed\u0259k, a\u00e7\u0131q s\u00f6hb\u0259timizi biz?
\nBilirs\u0259nmi,
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6l\u00fcl\u0259r\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259nir\u0259m.
\n\u018fn \u00e7ox q\u0259ribl\u0259r\u0259, \u00f6l\u00fc do\u011fulan k\u00f6rp\u0259l\u0259r\u0259
\nv\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259.
\nQ\u0259ribl\u0259rin d\u0259rdini d\u0259b\u0259rtm\u0259r\u0259m,
\nm\u0259zarlar\u0131 d\u0259rb\u0259d\u0259rdir sin\u0259md\u0259\u2026
\nQald\u0131 k\u00f6rp\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 v\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259? \u2013
\nOnlar ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131n dad\u0131n\u0131 bilm\u0259dil\u0259r,
\nS\u0259n ya\u015fatd\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131n.
\nG\u0259r\u0259k s\u0259n ya\u015fayayd\u0131n,
\ng\u0259r\u0259k ya\u015fatd\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131
\nya\u015fay\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fcn dadayd\u0131n!!!
\n\u2026 Eh, bu qu\u015flara n\u0259 var? \u2013
\nMeydandak\u0131 g\u00f6y\u0259r\u00e7inl\u0259ri,
\nv\u0259 boz, \u00e7il\u00e7il s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259l\u0259ri deyir\u0259m! \u2013
\nh\u0259yatlar\u0131n\u0131 hava,
\nruhlar\u0131m azadl\u0131q ox\u015famada.
\nM\u0259n d\u0259 bel\u0259,
\nM\u00fclk\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 bayqu\u015f qonub,
\n\u00d6z\u00fcm \u00dcmumi Binada
\n\u0259lli ildir
\ng\u0259r\u0259k ki\u2026 ya\u015famada\u2026
\nSa\u011f ol, \u0259ziz, m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259m \u0130li\u00e7!
\nM\u0259n gedir\u0259m, m\u0259lumun olsun bu ba\u015fdan \u2013
\nG\u00fcl\u00fcn \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131r\u0131b,
\nq\u0259bir\u0259 qoymaq ad\u0259timizc\u0259 deyil.
\nG\u0259l ki, mumiya cismin\u0259
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rim ya\u015farmada \u2013
\n\u0130nsansan, ax\u0131!
\nAmma g\u0259r\u0259k ba\u011f\u0131\u015flayasan,
\n\u00d6z babam\u0131n xatir\u0259si
\nZor i\u015fdi, Lenin baba!
\nO k\u0259d\u0259rli, \u00e7at\u0131q qa\u015flar
\nO yor\u011fun, o c\u0131rhac\u0131r
\nO araba yoluyca
\nGeri d\u00f6n\u00fcb
\nyer\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n bax\u0131\u015flar \u2026
\nh\u0259rd\u0259n yaman z\u00fclm eyl\u0259yir
\nh\u0259zin yaz ax\u015famlar\u0131nda \u2026
\nS\u018fAD\u018fT PAYI<\/p>\n
Bir s\u0259ad\u0259t pay\u0131 u\u00e7ur g\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259
\nBir s\u0259ad\u0259t pay\u0131 k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcr g\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259
\nD\u0259niz ha, deyil Sahili olsun?
\nKi, oturum
\ng\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 tor at\u0131m,
\ntor y\u0131\u011f\u0131m
\nOvlay\u0131b bal\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 ovunum.
\nYa tutum havada,
\nya bax\u0131b-bax\u0131b
\nat\u0131m.
\nG\u0259mi ha deyil
\nKi, \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib i\u00e7in\u0259
\nqovu\u015fum, ona \u00e7at\u0131m.
\nN\u0259 yaz\u0131q!
\nS\u0259ad\u0259tim g\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259 p\u0259rvaz edib dolanar,
\nk\u0259hk\u0259\u015fan\u0131 f\u0131rlanar.
\nSonra en\u0259r yer\u0259
\nD\u00f6y\u0259r qap\u0131lar\u0131 o gizli-gizli
\nB\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259li, yas\u0259m\u0259nli, n\u0259rgizli
\npay\u0131ndan qonaq ed\u0259r
\ns\u0259ad\u0259td\u0259n pay\u0131 art\u0131q olub
\npartlayanlar\u0131,
\n\u00fcf\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f qovuq kimi
\ns\u0259ad\u0259td\u0259n \u00e7atlayanlar\u0131.
\nM\u0259n\u0259 v\u0259fas\u0131z \u00e7\u0131xan
\na yegan\u0259 s\u0259ad\u0259tim!
\nM\u0259n\u0259 v\u0259fas\u0131z \u00e7\u0131xan
\na bigan\u0259 s\u0259ad\u0259tim!
\nKiml\u0259r\u0259 qonaq oldun?
\nHara qonacaq oldun?!
\n1980
\nD\u018fRYA M\u018fN\u018f TANI\u015eDI<\/p>\n
\/N.Hikm\u0259t v\u0259fadar\u0131, n\u0259cib insan,
\n\u00e7ox \u00f6n\u0259mli alim, dostum Ak\u015f\u0131n Babayev\u0259\/<\/p>\n
\u00c7ox b\u00f6y\u00fck i\u015fdir \u2013
\n\u0130yirminci \u0259srin
\nke\u015fm\u0259ke\u015find\u0259
\nyada d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k!
\nVar ol Ak\u015f\u0131n.
\nd\u00f6n\u00fcb g\u0259l\u0259n bu z\u0259ng\u0259
\nsevindim, xo\u015fhal oldum,
\nS\u0259nint\u0259k \u00ab\u00e7ini z\u0259r bir arkada\u015f\u0131n\u00bb
\ny\u00fckl\u00fc x\u0259yal\u0131nda buland\u0131\u011f\u0131ma
\nbillahi, bihal oldum.
\nG\u00f6r ha, yada d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm, n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm!
\nAmma, bilm\u0259dim xatirin\u0259, m\u0259n avara
\nquruda, havada, ya d\u0259ryada d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm?
\nD\u0259ryada olsa yax\u015f\u0131yd\u0131,
\nd\u0259rya m\u0259n\u0259 tan\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\nBir zamanlar
\nbal\u0131\u011f\u0131 atd\u0131m d\u0259ryaya,
\nDedil\u0259r, bal\u0131q bilm\u0259z, xaliq bil\u0259r.
\nG\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, n\u0259 bal\u0131q bildi, n\u0259 xaliq!
\nEh!\u2026 Sa\u011fl\u0131q olsun, sa\u011fl\u0131q.
\nSoru\u015fursan nec\u0259y\u0259m, n\u0259 c\u00fcr il\u0259 dolan\u0131ram?
\nD\u00f6vrand\u0131 da. \u0130l\u011f\u0131mlard\u0131r t\u0259s\u0259llisi.
\n\u0130nt\u0259has\u0131, s\u00f6zm\u0259s\u0259li,
\nG\u00fcc\u00fcn varsa, solma, \u0259yilm\u0259, saralma!
\nH\u0259, Ak\u015f\u0131n, h\u0259, dostum, qarda\u015f\u0131m, duyan\u0131m,
\nYax\u015f\u0131 deyib o ki\u015fil\u0259r:
\n\u00abG\u00fcl ol, b\u00fclb\u00fcl ol, q\u0259f\u0259sd\u0259 olma\u00bb.
\nB\u0130ZD\u018fN UCA N\u018fS\u018f VAR<\/p>\n
Olarsa,
\nbatarsam, qalarsam
\n\u00e7\u0131l\u0131n-\u00e7\u0131lpaq, bumbuz k\u00f6p\u00fckl\u00fc sularda,
\nOlarsa,
\n\u00f6l\u0259rs\u0259m, bit\u0259rs\u0259m
\nbu sular\u0131n yalq\u0131z, b\u0259yaz qoynunda,
\nM\u0259nim bu yor\u011fun cismimi
\nbir kims\u0259 aramas\u0131n,
\nN\u0259 bir n\u0259f\u0259s, n\u0259 bir s\u0259s
\nbar\u0131 sonuncu r\u00f6yamda\u2026
\nba\u011fr\u0131m\u0131 iki yarmas\u0131n!
\nM\u0259ni d\u0259niz laylalar, b\u0259simdi,
\nM\u0259ni d\u0259niz y\u0131r\u011falar, b\u0259simdi,
\nAnam ki yox, xain r\u00fczgar!
\n\u00dcst\u00fcmd\u0259 d\u0259niz a\u011flar, b\u0259simdi!\u2026<\/p>\n
Sar\u0131 r\u00fczgar, x\u0131s\u0131n r\u00fczgar, kor r\u00fczgar!
\nO sar\u0131 qulaqlar\u0131n\u0131
\nbir azcana geni\u015f a\u00e7
\n\u018fll\u0259rim od tutub yan\u0131r,
\ntorpaqd\u0131, bel\u0259 yand\u0131r\u0131r,
\ntorpa\u011fa xal d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcbd\u00fcr
\ntorpaq ba\u015fqala\u015f\u0131bd\u0131r.
\nE\u015fit, zal\u0131m, da\u015f torpa\u011f\u0131 ist\u0259m\u0259m,
\nm\u0259n d\u0259nizd\u0259 \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m
\nnisgilimi m\u0259n d\u0259nizl\u0259 b\u00f6l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m!
\nB\u0259b\u0259kl\u0259rim qan i\u00e7ind\u0259\u2026
\ng\u00f6zl\u0259rimi yuyas\u0131d\u0131r, bu sular,
\n\u00d6rp\u0259yin\u0259 \u00fcrp\u0259\u015fir\u0259m, geri \u00e7\u0259k
\nya\u015f\u0131l-ya\u015f\u0131l yosunlar
\nyamya\u015f ip\u0259k k\u00f6yn\u0259yind\u0259n
\n\u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 \u00f6rt\u00fck \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259k!<\/p>\n
M\u0259\u015f\u011ful r\u00fczgar, qul r\u00fczgar!
\nEhtiyac yox o nax\u0259l\u0259f b\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259r\u0259,
\nEhtiyac yoxdur s\u0259nin
\no s\u0259l\u0259mxor \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259!
\nD\u0259niz qahmar duracaq,
\nD\u0259niz hayh\u0259\u015fir salacaq,
\nQa\u011fay\u0131lar q\u0259fil qaqq\u0131lda\u015facaq,
\n\u00fcst\u00fcmd\u0259n sular da\u015facaq!
\nM\u0259nim ax\u015fam duam\u0131\u2026
\nqa\u011fay\u0131lar oxuyacaq,
\nm\u0259nim n\u0259\u011fm\u0259l\u0259rimi
\nsular \u00f6z\u00fc toplayacaq,
\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015f dolu bir z\u0259nbil\u0259
\nsular \u00f6z\u00fc toxuyacaq!\u2026<\/p>\n
L\u00fctf\u0259n, \u00e7ox insafl\u0131san,
\nG\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 bir c\u00fct g\u00f6z tap\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015fam,
\nQ\u0259vi r\u00fczgar! Ona toxunmayasan!
\nM\u0259nim tirtap qollar\u0131m\u0131
\no bakir\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259lim
\nlap ayd\u0131nca g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259k,
\nkiprik sal\u0131b g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n
\no k\u00f6vr\u0259kc\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259r il\u0259
\nk\u00f6p\u00fckl\u0259ri y\u0131\u011fmalay\u0131b
\nsa\u00e7lar\u0131ma a\u011fappaq
\nsu \u00e7\u0259l\u0259ngi h\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259k!<\/p>\n
Na\u011f\u0131l\u0131m\u0131 udan r\u00fczgar,
\nD\u00fcnyam\u0131 aldadan r\u00fczgar,
\nYuvam\u0131 da\u011f\u0131dan r\u00fczgar!
\nBir h\u0259qiq\u0259tdi ya\u015fayar,
\nBizd\u0259n uca n\u0259s\u0259 var!-
\nG\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fc s\u0259ni \u00e7a\u015fd\u0131rar,
\nO g\u00f6z\u0259lin ah\u0131 tutar,
\n\u00c7\u00f6p \u00f6mr\u00fc h\u0259rl\u0259mir d\u0259niz,
\ns\u0131x\u0131b s\u0259ni di\u015fl\u0259rin\u0259
\nq\u0131rar belini ikiy\u0259,
\nt\u00fcp\u00fcr\u00fcb d\u00fczl\u0259r\u0259 atar.
\nD\u0259niz m\u0259ni dinl\u0259mi\u015f,
\nb\u0259nizimi g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcr.
\nD\u00f6n\u00fck r\u00fczgar, soyuq r\u00fczgar, boz r\u00fczgar!
\nAgahd\u0131 i\u015fl\u0259r d\u0259niz\u0259 \u2013
\n\u0130\u015fg\u0259nc\u0259l\u0259r vermisiz
\nBir q\u0259rib b\u0259nd\u0259niz\u0259,
\nAgahd\u0131 i\u015fl\u0259r d\u0259niz\u0259,
\nehtiyac yoxdur art\u0131q
\nsizin o da\u015f q\u0259lbiniz\u0259.
\n1988
\nBU DA\u011e S\u0130Z\u018f TANI\u015e G\u018fLM\u018fZ<\/p>\n
\u00c7ox da dar\u0131lmay\u0131n siz
\nbu \u015f\u0259n, g\u00fcl\u0259r \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 \u2013
\nM\u0259nim \u00f6z k\u0259d\u0259rim var,
\nSizin\u00e7in deyil onlar.
\n\u00dcz\u00fcmd\u0259 axtarmay\u0131n,
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 aramay\u0131n
\nSiz sez\u0259 bilm\u0259zsiniz,
\nsevinm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ksiniz,
\nM\u0259n\u0259 b\u0259x\u015f etdiyiniz
\nK\u0259d\u0259r niqab\u0131na, siz.
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6p aramay\u0131n,
\nBir bel\u0259 d\u0259 dar\u0131lmay\u0131n \u2013
\nV\u0131z g\u0259ldiniz, vaz ke\u00e7dim m\u0259n
\nK\u00f6ks \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, d\u00fcz ke\u00e7dim m\u0259n
\nD\u00fczd\u00fcm q\u0259hrimi vara\u011fa,
\nqoymad\u0131m virana qala
\ntap\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m a\u011f sabahlara.
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n yox, bax ordan
\nZ\u0259rr\u0259binl\u0259 oxuyub
\nbol t\u0259s\u0259lli tapars\u0131z!
\nKefinizi saz eyl\u0259yin,
\nS\u0259br eyl\u0259yin, dar\u0131lmay\u0131n \u2013
\nBuz da\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259y\u0259m.
\nOd n\u0259f\u0259sim buza d\u00f6n\u00fcb,
\nbuzda s\u0131n\u0131r od bax\u0131\u015f\u0131m.
\n\u00dcz\u00fc nikbin \u00f6m\u00fcr il\u0259
\nqara, his-pas beyninizd\u0259
\nfikrinizi azd\u0131r\u0131ram,
\nBu d\u00f6vr il\u0259 h\u0259m \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc,
\nh\u0259m q\u0259mimi q\u0131zd\u0131r\u0131ram!
\nQan\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 qaraltmay\u0131n,
\nS\u0131x\u0131lmay\u0131n, dar\u0131lmaym \u2013
\nBuz y\u0131\u011f\u0131ram, buz q\u0131r\u0131ram,
\nBuz s\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131b, buz yar\u0131ram,
\nH\u0259rd\u0259n el\u0259 h\u00f6nk\u00fcr\u00fcr\u0259m.
\nH\u0259rd\u0259n olur s\u0259rs\u0259rit\u0259k,
\nbuz \u00e7\u0259mb\u0259rd\u0259, buz \u00e7evr\u0259d\u0259
\nziyad\u0259 bo\u015f-bo\u015f g\u00fcl\u00fcr\u0259m.
\nSolum da buz, sa\u011f\u0131m da buz
\nAllah b\u0259nd\u0259si olunuz,
\nbu r\u00fczgara\u2026 b\u0259nd olmay\u0131z!
\nQ\u0259lbiniz\u0259 xal salmay\u0131n,
\ndar\u0131may\u0131n, dar\u0131lmay\u0131n \u2013
\n\u00d6m\u00fcr buzlara g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fcr.
\nOlur ki, t\u0259n gec\u0259yar\u0131
\n\u00d6z \u00e7iynimd\u0259n \u00f6z i\u00e7im\u0259
\ny\u0131\u011f\u0131n-y\u0131\u011f\u0131n qar t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr.
\nBu da\u011f\u2026 siz\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f g\u0259lm\u0259z\u2026
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rimi rahat qoyun,
\nAllah\u0131ma tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131ram,
\nAllahl\u0131 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131z!
\nXo\u015f i\u015fl\u0259rl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olun,
\nXo\u015fca qal\u0131n, dar\u0131lmay\u0131n.
\nD\u0130NC\u018fL D\u00dcNYA
\nNuru yor\u011fun g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimin, beynimin
\nHesab\u0131na ya\u015fay\u0131ram,
\n\u018fl \u00e7\u0259k m\u0259nd\u0259n qar\u0131 d\u00fcnya,
\nY\u00fck\u00fcm\u00fc t\u0259k da\u015f\u0131y\u0131ram
\nMinn\u0259tini \u00e7\u0259k \u00fcst\u00fcmd\u0259n,
\nC\u0259nc\u0259l d\u00fcnya, c\u0259nc\u0259l d\u00fcnya!
\nBu y\u00fck, bu k\u00f6\u00e7, bu g\u00fcc il\u0259
\nS\u0259nin o kobud \u0259lin\u0259
\n\u018fl d\u0259 verib, ayr\u0131l\u0131ram,
\n\u018fl \u00e7\u0259k m\u0259nd\u0259n, sar\u0131 d\u00fcnya \u2026
\nDaha \u00e7\u0259kil g\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259n
\n\u018fb\u0259dilik t\u0259k qal\u0131ram,
\nDinc\u0259l d\u00fcnya, dinc\u0259l d\u00fcnya!
\nNUR A\u011eACIYAM<\/p>\n
\u2026 \u00d6ld\u00fcr\u0259 bilm\u0259diz m\u0259ni. \u00d6ld\u00fcr\u0259 bilm\u0259zsiniz!
\nQaya da\u015fla \u2013 \u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz, \u2013
\nQar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m i\u00e7iniz\u0259, kininiz\u0259 d\u0259,
\nG\u00fccs\u00fczs\u00fcn\u00fcz,
\nG\u00fccs\u00fcz olunca, salam g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259c\u0259m ikiniz\u0259 d\u0259.<\/p>\n
\u00d6ld\u00fcr\u0259 bilm\u0259zsiz m\u0259ni.
\nM\u0259nd\u0259 bit\u0259n o a\u011fac\u0131 he\u00e7 r\u00f6yada g\u00f6rm\u0259misiz. \u2013
\nBudaqlar\u0131 nurdand\u0131, yarpaqlar\u0131 b\u00fcllurdan,
\n\u015eehl\u0259ri g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f incil\u0259r, sin\u0259m \u00fcst\u0259 dinc\u0259l\u0259r!
\nYa\u015f\u0131l-ya\u015f\u0131l ya\u015f\u0131llanacaq, ya\u015f\u0131llar yolum olacaq!
\nYollar boyunca salam g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259c\u0259m ikiniz\u0259 d\u0259.<\/p>\n
\u00d6ld\u00fcr\u0259 bilm\u0259zsiniz. Eynim\u0259 deyilsiniz;
\nFikirl\u0259riniz lillidi, sinirl\u0259riniz \u00f6l\u00fcd\u00fc,
\nRuhunuz \u00e7oxdan \u00f6l\u00fcbd\u00fc,
\nMin \u00f6m\u00fcr d\u0259 ya\u015fasaz,
\nM\u0259nd\u0259 bit\u0259n o a\u011fac\u0131n e\u015fqini ya\u015famazs\u0131z!
\nNur a\u011fac\u0131yam indi, b\u00fct\u00fcn \u015fir\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259di,
\nRi\u015f\u0259l\u0259r m\u0259nd\u0259n ke\u00e7ir, ri\u015f\u0259l\u0259r m\u0259nd\u0259n su i\u00e7ir,
\n\u00d6l\u0259rs\u0259 cismim \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259k, o a\u011fac \u00f6lm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k,
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn k\u00f6kl\u0259r k\u00f6ks\u00fcmd\u0259, m\u0259nd\u0259dir, b\u00f6l\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k,
\nMin yerd\u0259n sayr\u0131\u015facaq!
\nSayr\u0131\u015f\u0131nca, salam g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259c\u0259m ikiniz\u0259 d\u0259!
\nNur a\u011fac\u0131yam! M\u0259n s\u0259nd\u0259n sonra \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259m,
\nSiz m\u0259nd\u0259n \u00e7ox-\u00e7ox \u00f6nc\u0259.
\nQorxaqs\u0131n\u0131z, qorxuncsunuz! P\u00f6hr\u0259l\u0259ri bo\u011fursunuz!
\nBir g\u00fcn d\u0259 bir s\u00fcbh \u00e7a\u011f\u0131
\nh\u0259qiq\u0259tin ovcunda qaxac olacaqs\u0131n\u0131z.
\nD\u00f6n\u00fcb bir qarava\u015f, m\u00fcti b\u0259nd\u0259y\u0259
\nO a\u011fac\u0131n alt\u0131na, i\u015f\u0131q selin\u0259
\nK\u0259tilsiz-filans\u0131z s\u0131\u011f\u0131nacaqs\u0131z!
\n\u00d6lm\u0259dim, yox! Yax\u015f\u0131 tan\u0131y\u0131n\u0131z siz ikiniz d\u0259
\n\u0130\u015f\u0131q s\u0259lt\u0259n\u0259ti, nur a\u011fac\u0131yam!
\nBoylan\u0131b yuxar\u0131, \u0259r\u015f\u0259 baxanda
\nG\u00f6yl\u0259r qum qovurar g\u00f6zl\u0259rinizd\u0259!
\nBax onda, bu c\u00fcr\u0259, m\u0259n d\u0259 bel\u0259c\u0259
\nZill\u0259yib g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u00fcz\u00fca\u015fa\u011f\u0131
\nDoyunca, qahqah i\u00e7ind\u0259, salam g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259c\u0259m ikiniz\u0259 d\u0259!!!
\n1986
\n\u00dcR\u018fY\u0130M\u0130 E\u015e\u0130T, D\u00dcNYA<\/p>\n
D\u00fcnya \u00e7iyinl\u0259rimd\u0259,
\n\u00e7iynim d\u00fcnyadan a\u011f\u0131r
\nendirdim ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7iynimin \u00fcst\u0259
\ng\u00f6rd\u00fcm qollar\u0131m yoxdur.
\n\u0130ki qolum \u2013 iki budaq.
\n\u0130ki qolum ikisi d\u0259 dir\u0259ndil\u0259r g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259.
\nBaxd\u0131m b\u0259d\u0259n torpaq \u00fcst\u0259,
\niki qolum ikisi d\u0259
\n\u00fcz\u00fcr ke\u00e7ir g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n.<\/p>\n
\u00dcr\u0259yimi e\u015fit, d\u00fcnya!
\nQollar\u0131m h\u00f6vl eyl\u0259mi\u015f,
\nTorpaq iki ha\u00e7ad\u0131r,
\nK\u00f6rpu heyr\u0259t i\u00e7ind\u0259,
\nM\u0259ftill\u0259r qocal\u0131bd\u0131r,
\ng\u00f6r ha\u00e7and\u0131r
\niki yol aras\u0131nda
\nqollar na\u00e7ar qal\u0131bd\u0131r!
\nD\u00fcnya! M\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259yan ol,
\nG\u00f6yl\u0259ri s\u0259ks\u0259ndirm\u0259,
\nqollar\u0131m yol ged\u0259sidir,
\nOnu h\u0259sr\u0259t u\u00e7urub,
\nqollar\u0131ma ana ol,
\nqollar\u0131m yorulubdur,
\nqollar\u0131m\u0131 ovundur!<\/p>\n
D\u00fcnya, m\u0259n\u0259 yiy\u0259 dur!
\nO sahil\u0259\u2026 bax\u0131nca
\n\u00fcr\u0259yim suya d\u00f6n\u00fcr,
\nB\u0259d\u0259n qolsuz \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131r,
\nyer\u0259-g\u00f6y\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131nm\u0131r,
\nDa\u011flar boy vermir m\u0259n\u0259,
\nbar\u0131 allah g\u00f6y\u00fcnd\u0259
\nqollar\u0131ma yol eyl\u0259!<\/p>\n
D\u00fcnya, \u00f6z\u00fcn cavab ver!
\nM\u0259nim b\u0259d\u0259nsiz qollar\u0131m
\ng\u00fcl-\u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k \u00e7\u0259l\u0259ngini
\ng\u00f6r\u0259n nec\u0259 tutacaq?
\nD\u00f6n\u00fcb bir c\u00fct qu\u015f olunca
\na\u011far\u0131b g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259
\nb\u0259d\u0259nsiz nec\u0259 u\u00e7acaq?
\n\u00d6mr\u00fc darda, ba\u015f\u0131 qalda,
\no t\u0259kl\u0259n\u0259n torpa\u011f\u0131m\u0131\u2026
\ng\u00f6r\u0259n, havax, hans\u0131 \u00fczl\u0259
\nhans\u0131 t\u0259\u015fvi\u015f i\u00e7ind\u0259\u2026
\nnec\u0259, n\u0259 c\u00fcr qucacaq?!\u2026
\nK\u00d6\u00c7\u00dcR O NAZLI DURNAM \u2026
\n(Cavan, nakam anam\u0131n q\u0259rib \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259)<\/p>\n
Y\u0131x\u0131l\u0131m yoluna m\u0259n,
\nF\u0259l\u0259k, qulun olum m\u0259n.
\nO m\u0259nim \u00f6z anamd\u0131,
\nQ\u0131yma, q\u0259rib durnamd\u0131.
\nF\u0259l\u0259k, saxla \u0259lini,
\ns\u0131\u011fallay\u0131m telini!\u2026
\nYollar \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131,
\nK\u00f6ks\u00fcnd\u0259 oba da\u011f\u0131\u2026
\nQu\u015f idi, havadayd\u0131,
\nOv\u00e7u vurdu, ay\u0131rd\u0131.
\nYaradan\u0131m, \u00f6z\u00fcn yet,
\nYaras\u0131na \u00e7ar\u0259 et.
\nZaval\u0131 g\u00fccl\u00fc g\u0259ldi,
\nG\u0259l\u0259n sel il\u0259 g\u0259ldi.
\nGed\u0259ni g\u0259lm\u0259z oldu,
\nD\u0259rdi bilinm\u0259z oldu.
\nO taydad\u0131r avar\u0131\u2026
\nYox ba\u015fqa havadar\u0131.
\nAvaz\u0131, s\u00f6z\u00fc q\u0259rib,
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259r yola s\u0259rilib.
\nSolur o su sonas\u0131,
\nX\u0259b\u0259rsizdi anas\u0131!
\nN\u0259n\u0259m, di \u00e7al laylan\u0131,
\nT\u0259brizd\u0259\u2026
\nox\u015fa cavan balan\u0131
\nbo\u015f qalm\u0131\u015f dizl\u0259rinin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259
\nU\u00e7du bizim xaniman,
\nBiz y\u00fcz idik be\u015f qald\u0131q.
\nBu nifaq\u0131 kim sald\u0131?
\nD\u0259r\u0259d\u0259\u2026 pe\u015fman qald\u0131q.
\nTanr\u0131m, n\u0259z\u0259r et biz\u0259,
\nR\u0259hm et r\u00fczgar\u0131m\u0131za.
\nO bilinm\u0259z d\u00fcnyaya,
\nYolu d\u00f6nm\u0259z d\u00fcnyaya
\nU\u00e7ur bir nazl\u0131 durnam,
\nK\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcr, o nazl\u0131 durnam.
\nTanr\u0131m onu \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259!
\n\u00d6ld\u00fcrm\u0259, onu da\u2026 N\u0259 olar.
\nQ\u0131yma, anamd\u0131, tanr\u0131m,
\nO m\u0259nim bir ayr\u0131ca V\u0259t\u0259nim !\u2026
\nQuzumdu, m\u0259xm\u0259rimdi\u2026
\n\u018fll\u0259ri buz anamd\u0131\u2026
\n\u00d6ld\u00fcrm\u0259 !
\nQ\u0259rib durnamd\u0131, tanr\u0131m !
\n1977
\nAYRILIQLAR BOYUM B\u0130\u00c7\u0130M\u0130<\/p>\n
\u00dcr\u0259k susur, dodaq susur,
\nA\u011fac susur, budaq susur,
\nN\u0259 bir h\u0259nir, n\u0259 bir n\u0259f\u0259s,
\nQ\u0131m\u0131ldanmay\u0131r yarpaqlar,
\nGec\u0259 yalq\u0131zl\u0131q laylas\u0131 deyir,
\nUyuyur qollar\u0131mda meh \u0259simi,
\nXatir\u0259 yell\u0259yir\u0259m be\u015fik kimi,
\nKims\u0259 yoxmu\u015f, be\u015fik bombo\u015f,
\nKims\u0259sizlik yeyir i\u00e7imi,
\nAyr\u0131l\u0131qlar boyum bi\u00e7imi!\u2026
\n\u00dcr\u0259yim iki b\u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcr,
\nh\u0259r g\u00fcn bel\u0259, yava\u015f-yava\u015f h\u0259r \u015fey \u00f6l\u00fcr
\nArt\u0131q \u0259ll\u0259rim \u00abo m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s ayr\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u00bb \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259dir.
\n\u018fl-\u0259l\u0259 vermi\u015fik onunla,
\nO \u00e7\u0259kid\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259n \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131r,
\nM\u0259n onun tu\u015funda qov kimiy\u0259m,
\n\u00c7\u0259kir m\u0259ni, oyunu o aparacaq,
\nN\u0259 f\u0259rqim\u0259, art\u0131q ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011fa \u00f6yr\u0259nc\u0259liy\u0259m.
\nAh, ayr\u0131l\u0131q!
\nBiz ki, \u00e7oxdan tan\u0131\u015f\u0131q?!\u2026
\nEl\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lki t\u0259k, b\u0259nizimiz sopsoluq\u2026
\nXo\u015f g\u0259ldin son ayr\u0131l\u0131q. Qolboyun olaq.
\nArt\u0131q qorxum yox.
\n1987
\nM\u018fN\u0130M O A\u011e \u00c7\u0130\u00c7\u018fKL\u018fR\u0130M<\/p>\n
T\u00fck\u0259ndi a\u011f \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rim, bir pay\u0131za yaraq oldu
\n\u00c7a\u015fd\u0131 \u0259s\u0259n r\u00fczgarlarda, qopub varaq-varaq oldu.<\/p>\n
Qu\u015f olub u\u00e7du g\u00fcll\u0259rim, \u0259ld\u0259 qalan budaq oldu
\nBus\u0259l\u0259rimin qona\u011f\u0131 bir \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u0259n yarpaq oldu.<\/p>\n
G\u00f6zl\u0259rim g\u00f6l\u0259 \u00e7evrildi, v\u00fcsal m\u0259nd\u0259n uzaq oldu,
\nN\u0259 g\u0259ldi q\u00fcss\u0259d\u0259n g\u0259ldi, m\u0259ni \u00fcz\u0259n f\u0259raq oldu!<\/p>\n
X\u0259yal oldu sevdikl\u0259rim, yan\u0131b-s\u00f6n\u0259n \u00e7\u0131raq oldu
\nM\u0259nim o a\u011f \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rim, d\u00f6n\u00fcb qara torpaq oldu.
\nYADDA\u015e YAPI\u015eQANI<\/p>\n
Bir bu a\u011fac idi, bir d\u0259 k\u00f6lg\u0259si.
\nBir biz idik, bir d\u0259 s\u0131n\u0131q k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcz.
\nRuhumuzda \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rin n\u0259f\u0259si,
\nsin\u0259mizd\u0259 n\u0259h\u0259ng sevgi n\u0259\u011fm\u0259si,
\nBir d\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k idi\u2026 G\u0259r\u0259k ki, bir n\u0259m\u0259kdan idi,
\nbir ba\u015f da so\u011fan.
\nV\u0259ssalam.
\n\u2026 S\u00fcfr\u0259 diksinmi\u015fdi, duz da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131,
\n\u00c7\u00f6r\u0259k qupquruydu, so\u011fan da ac\u0131.
\nN\u0259yimiz yand\u0131rd\u0131 ki,
\nEl\u0259 bu zaman
\n\u018fli baltal\u0131 g\u0259ldi, k\u0259sdi bizim a\u011fac\u0131?!\u2026
\n1979
\nGED\u018fK, S\u018fRV\u0130M, G\u00dcN\u018f\u015e\u0130 B\u018fRAB\u018fR \u00d6P\u018fK<\/p>\n
Yetdin m\u0259n\u0259. Yetdin, amma hans\u0131 zill\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259n sonra?
\nF\u0259l\u0259yin beli q\u0131r\u0131ls\u0131n;
\nSoluq-soluq olub qalm\u0131\u015f, yurdunu r\u00fczgar da\u011f\u0131tm\u0131\u015f
\nyetim bir a\u011fac kimidir aram\u0131zda duran g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f.
\nBu \u0259hval\u0131n g\u00fcnah\u0131n\u0131 kimd\u0259 bil\u0259k, kimd\u0259n soraq?
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn bu i\u015fl\u0259r arxada. Faydas\u0131 yox, olub ke\u00e7mi\u015f.
\nG\u00fcl ba\u011f\u00e7am\u0131z ba\u011fl\u0131 qalm\u0131\u015f,
\nOtlar bas\u0131b, tikan bitmi\u015f.
\n\u0130nd\u0259n sonra \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc n\u0259d\u0259n yoraq, niy\u0259 yoraq?
\nBilirs\u0259nmi, n\u0259r igidim,
\nSevi\u015fm\u0259k \u00e7ox ki\u00e7ik s\u00f6hb\u0259t. Yanmaqdad\u0131r m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259.
\nM\u0259cnun timsal\u0131 e\u015fq g\u0259r\u0259k. Bizim na\u011f\u0131l varaq-varaq.
\n\u00dcz\u00fclm\u0259 \u00e7ox. Biz onsuz da canb\u0259s\u0259rik,
\n\u00abBadi \u2013 s\u0259balar\u2026\u00bb \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n
\nBiz \u00e7oxdan yetim-yesirik!\u2026
\nYax\u015f\u0131, raz\u0131yam s\u0259ninl\u0259, d\u00fc\u015f\u0259k yola.
\n\u018fz\u0259l ged\u0259k tanr\u0131n\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131n d\u00f6y\u0259k.
\nYa\u011f\u0131\u015f versin\u2026 g\u00fcnah\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 paklas\u0131n.
\nSonra ged\u0259k G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi b\u0259rab\u0259r \u00f6p\u0259k.
\nYan\u0131rsa dodaqlar\u0131m\u0131z G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fd\u0259 yans\u0131n.
\nBax g\u00f6r, od tell\u0259ri daraq-daraq!
\nAlov t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr, alov!
\nQorxma, s\u0259rvim!\u2026 \u018fll\u0259rimiz q\u0131z\u0131nacaq,
\nBiz ki \u00e7oxdan \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fck?\u2026
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rimiz q\u0131\u015fq\u0131racaq,
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn dibi g\u00f6rs\u0259n\u0259c\u0259kdir!
\nBax ordan g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259yik, ill\u0259rin ilm\u0259sini,
\nOrdan sez\u0259c\u0259yik biz
\nBu kor,
\nBu zal\u0131m f\u0259l\u0259yin, zor f\u0259l\u0259yin\u2026
\nzorla k\u0259l\u0259k g\u0259lm\u0259sini!\u2026
\nOrdan e\u015fid\u0259c\u0259yik
\ni\u00e7imizd\u0259 q\u0131vr\u0131lan\u2026 haqq\u0131n m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259sini!!!
\nH\u0259, nec\u0259dir? Haz\u0131rsanm\u0131? Di dur onda yola varaq.
\nSevi\u015fm\u0259k yox iraq-iraq!
\nGed\u0259k, \u00f6lm\u0259k g\u0259r\u0259k!
\nBu \u015fahid G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi, \u015f\u0259hid G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi
\nGed\u0259k, b\u0259rab\u0259r \u00f6p\u0259k.
\nGed\u0259k s\u0259rvim, ged\u0259k, ged\u0259k. Bizim na\u011f\u0131l varaq-varaq.
\n1980
\nM\u018fN G\u00dcL\u00dcR\u018fM<\/p>\n
M.\u018f.Sabir\u0259
\nToxunur q\u0259lbim\u0259
\nK\u0259l\u0259k\u00f6t\u00fcr bir nadan \u2013
\nM\u0259n g\u00fcl\u00fcr\u0259m,
\nG\u00fclm\u0259yi \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015f\u0259m binadan, lap olan\u0131 anadan \u2013
\nM\u0259n g\u00fcl\u00fcr\u0259m.
\nTan\u0131yas\u0131 olas\u0131: \u00d6rd\u0259yi, qaz\u0131, qutan\u0131,
\nYaxud, ay\u0131ra bildiyimd\u0259n
\nbirini dig\u0259rind\u0259n
\nY\u0259ni cini, \u015feytan\u0131, bir d\u0259 bu moltan\u0131n\u0131 \u2013
\nM\u0259n g\u00fcl\u00fcr\u0259m.
\nVay, vay! Baba, vay!
\nhe\u00e7 el\u0259 bil b\u0259\u015f\u0259r deyill\u0259r,
\nKin udub, kin \u00fcf\u00fcr\u00fcb, cikkild\u0259\u015fib, \u015f\u0259r dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rlar \u2013
\nM\u0259n g\u00fcl\u00fcr\u0259m.
\n\u2026 B\u00f6htanlar, qeyb\u0259tl\u0259r s\u0259f kimidir,
\nCan\u0131m evi ni\u015fangah, \u00fcr\u0259yim h\u0259d\u0259f kimidir.
\nYa\u011fd\u0131ran hey ya\u011fd\u0131r\u0131r,
\nNamxuda sinirl\u0259rim d\u0259f kimidir\u2026
\nEynim\u0259 almay\u0131ram xortdanlar\u0131, c\u0131rtdanlar\u0131,
\nBax\u0131n\u0131z, yax\u015f\u0131 bax\u0131z, di\u015fl\u0259rim s\u0259d\u0259f kimidir! \u2013
\nM\u0259n g\u00fcl\u00fcr\u0259m.
\nA baba,
\nS\u0259n bunun, bu ki\u015finin motal kimi qarn\u0131na bax,
\nDaz ba\u015f\u0131, kamodpa\u00e7a q\u0131l\u00e7as\u0131na,
\n\u00dc\u00e7c\u0259 qar\u0131\u015f boyuna bax.
\nQoluna girmi\u015f olan \u201cQaz q\u0131z\u0131\u201d,
\nC\u00fcml\u0259cahan yar\u0131na bax,
\n\u0130ndi g\u0259l, g\u00f6ftar\u0131na, ar\u0131na bax!
\nM\u0259n g\u00fcl\u00fcr\u0259m.
\nH\u0259l\u0259 s\u0259n bu arvad\u0131n z\u0259h\u0259r ya\u011fan sif\u0259tin\u0259,
\nS\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259, s\u00f6hb\u0259tin\u0259, ke\u00e7mi\u015fin\u0259, ya\u015f\u0131na bax!
\nG\u00fclbac\u0131, M\u0259mm\u0259dta\u011f\u0131, Fatman\u0131sa n\u0259 i\u015fim\u0259,
\nS\u0259n canun, yaz\u0131 yazan, c\u00fcml\u0259 pozan na\u015f\u0131ya bax! \u2013
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn k\u00f6lg\u0259sin\u0259, aln\u0131n\u0131n l\u0259k\u0259sin\u0259
\nat\u0131lan oxuna bax,
\nhikk\u0259sin\u0259, da\u015f\u0131na bax! \u2013
\nM\u0259n g\u00fcl\u00fcr\u0259m.
\nO q\u0259d\u0259r ki g\u00fcl\u00fcr\u0259m, g\u00fclm\u0259kd\u0259n s\u0259rxo\u015f oluram,
\n\u00d6n\u00fcm\u0259 pill\u0259 g\u0259lir, y\u00fcks\u0259lir\u0259m, q\u0259\u015f\u015f edir\u0259m \u2013
\nM\u0259n g\u00fcl\u00fcr\u0259m.
\nTur\u015fumu\u015f \u00fcz g\u00f6zl\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6z da\u011f\u0131yam,
\nbillahi lap, g\u00fcll\u0259 kimi tu\u015f oluram,
\nu\u011funub ke\u00e7inm\u0259kd\u0259n, tirtab d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb,
\n\u0130ndi d\u0259 bihu\u015f oluram, \u00f6lm\u0259yir\u0259m,
\nM\u0259n g\u00fcl\u00fcr\u0259m.
\nOlmu\u015fam \u015fad, x\u00fcrr\u0259m, \u015f\u0259n \u2013
\nM\u0259n g\u00fcl\u00fcr\u0259m.
\nPah atonnan! M\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcm, s\u0259n buna bax!!!
\nT\u00fckl\u0259rimdir \u00fcrp\u0259\u015f\u0259n,
\nBaba,
\nB\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn ruh v\u0259 b\u0259d\u0259ndir titr\u0259\u015f\u0259n,
\n\u00e7ar\u0259siz\u0259m
\nh\u00f6nk\u00fcr\u00fcb a\u011flay\u0131ram \u2013
\ng\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc ba\u011flay\u0131ram \u2013
\nM\u0259n g\u00fcl\u00fcr\u0259m.
\n1985
\nH\u018fRRAC OLMALI BU T\u018fL\u018f<\/p>\n
Ey, siz! Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 gic, t\u00fck\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc vic-vic ed\u0259nl\u0259r!
\nBir ovucsuz, bir ovuc, ziyan\u0259v\u0259rl\u0259r!
\nBir ovucun i\u00e7ind\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131lacaqs\u0131z.
\nBir ovucsuz, bir ovuc, ziyan ver\u0259nl\u0259r!
\nTaxt\u0131n\u0131z \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n y\u0131x\u0131lacaqs\u0131z;
\nTorpa\u011f\u0131 aldatm\u0131s\u0131z,
\nTorpa\u011f\u0131 d\u0259n bilib ar\u0131tdatm\u0131s\u0131z!
\nBu torpa\u011f\u0131n ba\u011fr\u0131n\u0131 siz \u00e7atdatm\u0131s\u0131z! \u2013
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn i\u00e7in\u0259 yalan \u00fcf\u00fcrd\u00fcn\u00fcz siz,
\nTarixin \u00e7\u0259rxini t\u0259rsin\u0259 h\u0259rl\u0259tdiniz.
\nN\u0259 tanr\u0131 tan\u0131d\u0131n\u0131z, n\u0259 b\u0259nd\u0259sini,
\nN\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259t qand\u0131n\u0131z, n\u0259 hicran s\u0259si,
\nN\u0259 yolu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcz, n\u0259 d\u0259 yol\u00e7unu
\nDa\u011f\u0131 da, da\u015f\u0131 da siz \u00e7\u0259rl\u0259tdiniz!
\nTorpaq ke\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k g\u00fcnah\u0131n\u0131zdan,
\nAx\u0131r bir q\u0259nim\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259ksiniz,
\nN\u0259 taxt?!?
\nTorpa\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n y\u0131x\u0131lacaqs\u0131z!<\/p>\n
Ey, siz! S\u0259simizi bo\u011fub, beynimizi gic\u0259ll\u0259d\u0259nl\u0259r!
\nAx\u0131 sizi kim do\u011fmu\u015f?
\nBu torpa\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 sizl\u0259ri kim doldurmu\u015f?
\n\u00dcr\u0259yiniz varm\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n? N\u0259 varsa tapdam\u0131s\u0131z!
\nSiz \u00abV\u0259t\u0259n!\u00bb s\u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 alver etmisiz,
\nV\u0259t\u0259n g\u00f6yn\u0259mini hardan bil\u0259siz,
\nV\u0259t\u0259n k\u00f6lg\u0259sind\u0259 k\u00f6lg\u0259l\u0259nmisiz! \u2013
\nK\u00fcpl\u0259riniz yer alt\u0131nda t\u0259ngin\u0259f\u0259s.
\nV\u0259zif\u0259niz sin\u0259niz\u0259 canl\u0131 q\u0259f\u0259s;
\nSiz ana s\u00fcd\u00fcn\u0259 haram qatm\u0131s\u0131z \u2013
\nAna \u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcn\u00fc, ana dilini
\nK\u00fcl\u0259\u015f t\u0259k s\u00fcp\u00fcr\u00fcb, silib atm\u0131s\u0131z!
\n\u00abK \u00e7ortu\u00bb demisiz, \u00abterpi\u00bb demisiz,
\nyersiz ocaqlara yelpik vermisiz!
\nSiz hardan bil\u0259siz b\u0259b\u0259k n\u0259dir, k\u00f6lg\u0259 n\u0259?
\n\u00dcr\u0259k n\u0259dir, dil\u0259k n\u0259dir, k\u0259f\u0259n n\u0259?
\nAx\u0131 nec\u0259 bil\u0259siz, torpaq n\u0259dir, b\u00f6l\u00fck n\u0259,
\n\u018fcdad n\u0259dir, l\u0259k\u0259 n\u0259dir, v\u0259t\u0259n n\u0259?<\/p>\n
Ey, siz! \u00d6mr\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc-g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc girinc ed\u0259nl\u0259r!
\nSizi deyir\u0259m, sizi! \u2013 Ba\u015fyazar, Ba\u015fpozar ziyan\u0259v\u0259rl\u0259r!
\nS\u00f6z qovub, c\u00fcml\u0259 bo\u011fub, elm\u0259 ziyan ver\u0259nl\u0259r!
\n\u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fcn a\u015fiqisiz, bu yolda \u0259ld\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcs\u00fcz! \u2013
\nA\u011f ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131 m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259bl\u0259 bo\u015funa ya\u015flam\u0131s\u0131z
\nX\u0259ttinizi\u2026 beynimiz\u0259 zor il\u0259 tu\u015flam\u0131s\u0131z!
\nH\u0259r \u015fey zora tabe olmur, olmuyur ancaq,
\nh\u0259r \u015fey bu c\u00fcr\u0259 bo\u011fulmur, bo\u011fulmayacaq, ancaq!
\nO\u011fullar var, o\u011fullar!.. haqq yolunda qovrulurlar!..
\nSiz onlar\u0131 \u00fczd\u0259niraq, d\u00f6rdayaql\u0131 bilmisiz,
\nqap\u0131n\u0131zda zing-zing zingild\u0259tmisiniz!
\nSiz haqq\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131na da\u015f basm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n\u0131z!
\nSiz b\u0259yaz yollarda G\u00fcn\u2026 i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan
\nOlub ki, g\u00f6z\u00fckor yarasa kimi
\nYan \u00f6t\u00fcp, gizl\u0259nib, ya\u015f\u0131nm\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z!
\nN\u0259 bilmisiz, bu haqq hesabla
\nQeyr\u0259t d\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131r, qan yadda\u015f\u0131 da,
\nC\u00fcr\u0259t d\u0259 \u00f6lm\u0259zdir, el sava\u015f\u0131 da!\u2026<\/p>\n
Ey, siz! \u00d6zl\u0259rini el i\u00e7ind\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcnc ed\u0259nl\u0259r!
\n\u00dcr\u0259yinin, vicdan\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6nl\u0259rind\u0259 ged\u0259nl\u0259r!
\nB\u0259llidir g\u0259rdi\u015finiz. Ke\u00e7m\u0259z daha i\u015finiz!
\nSizin yollar\u0131 otlar bas\u0131bd\u0131r,
\nBir g\u00fccl\u00fc da\u011f seli basmalay\u0131bd\u0131r
\nT\u0259sliminiz b\u0259yan g\u0259r\u0259k, bi\u00e7ilm\u0259li, bi\u00e7ilm\u0259li,
\nL\u00fc\u011f\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259n bi\u00e7ilm\u0259li
\nh\u0259m \u00abz\u0259r\u00bbiniz, h\u0259m \u00abz\u00fcy\u00bb\u00fcn\u00fcz, h\u0259m \u00abzor\u00bbunuz!
\nDir\u00e7\u0259lm\u0259li. Dir\u00e7\u0259lm\u0259li! Siql\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259n dir\u00e7\u0259lm\u0259li
\n\u00abhaqq\u00bb, \u00ab\u0259dal\u0259t\u00bb v\u0259 \u00abdo\u011fru\u00bbmuz!
\nE-he, he, he, he, hey!\u2026 Q\u0259rib d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, q\u0259rib g\u0259zib it\u0259n o\u011fullar!
\nE-he, he, he, he, hey!\u2026 Qap\u0131lar dal\u0131nda p\u00f6rt\u0259n o\u011fullar!\u2026
\nA d\u0259d\u0259-o\u011fullar, V\u0259t\u0259n-o\u011fullar! G\u0259lin, g\u0259lin!
\nG\u0259lin, g\u0259lin! Gec deyil h\u0259l\u0259. Ver\u0259k \u0259l-\u0259l\u0259,
\nS\u00f6k\u00fclm\u0259li, da\u011f\u0131lmal\u0131, h\u0259rrac olmal\u0131 bu t\u0259l\u0259!!
\n1985
\nBU D\u018fRDL\u018fR\u0130 N\u0130Y\u018f, HARA S\u00dcR\u00dcY\u018fS\u0130Y\u018fM<\/p>\n
\u00d6z\u00fcn qoru, qoru allah\u0131m, qoru
\nS\u00fcng\u00fcl\u0259rd\u0259n, s\u0259ng\u0259rl\u0259rd\u0259n, topdan, atomdan,
\nQoru q\u0259fil yan\u011f\u0131ndan!\u2026
\nL\u0259n\u0259t \u015f\u0259r\u0259, \u015f\u0259r dem\u0259s\u0259n, xeyir g\u0259lm\u0259z.
\nOlmad\u0131 el\u0259, oldu bel\u0259.
\nyaz\u0131q torpaq! Sin\u0259n nec\u0259 c\u00fcc\u0259r\u0259c\u0259k?
\nBu\u011fdalar\u0131 kim bec\u0259rib, kim y\u0131\u011facaq?
\nBir m\u0259h\u015f\u0259r g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00e7\u0259k\u00e7evirind\u0259n
\nSa\u011f-salamat \u00e7\u0131xar olsaq,
\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015f g\u00f6rs\u0259k, G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f telind\u0259 g\u00f6rs\u0259ns\u0259k
\nHans\u0131 r\u0259ngd\u0259 olas\u0131d\u0131 d\u0259rimiz?
\nHans\u0131 ah\u0259ngd\u0259 olacaq s\u0259simiz?
\nHans\u0131 dild\u0259 dan\u0131\u015faca\u011f\u0131q?
\nhara, hans\u0131 diyara,
\nyen\u0259 nec\u0259,
\nn\u0259 c\u00fcr da\u015f\u0131naca\u011f\u0131q?!
\n\u018fll\u0259rimiz, \u00fcr\u0259yimiz olacaqm\u0131?
\nSevgi nec\u0259? E\u015fq-me\u015fqd\u0259n \u0259s\u0259r,
\nSur\u0259ti-\u0259llam\u0259-zad
\nboylanacaqm\u0131?
\nDamlar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131 n\u0259 yerd\u0259 qalas\u0131, ay oba hey!..
\nK\u00f6rp\u0259c\u0259l\u0259r
\nSevgil\u0259rd\u0259n dir\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r, m\u0259qs\u0259d g\u00fcd\u0259n nikahdan?
\nCavab s\u00f6yl\u0259,
\nsevgil\u0259rsiz mayalanm\u0131\u015f \u00ab\u00f6vladlar\u0131n\u00bb \u2013
\n\u0259tc\u0259-m\u0259tc\u0259l\u0259r\u2026
\nyurdun kar\u0131nam\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259r?! \u015e\u00f6hr\u0259t g\u00fcd\u0259r, qeyr\u0259t g\u00fcd\u0259r?
\nQeyr\u0259t ha! G\u00f6r\u0259n yada d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259kmi?
\nQarda\u015f qarda\u015f il\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259kmi?
\nH\u0259sr\u0259t nec\u0259? Ba\u011fr\u0131n\u0131 kim d\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k?
\nD\u00fcz 170 il 2 min gec\u0259
\nBel\u0259c\u0259\u2026 \u201cG\u00fcl\u00fcstani-k\u0259m\u0259nd\u201d i\u00e7r\u0259
\nel\u0259 hey g\u00f6yn\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k,
\nYoxsa bir g\u00fcn \u201camin!\u201d dey\u0259, g\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259 c\u00f6vlan ed\u0259c\u0259k?
\nMinb\u0259rl\u0259rd\u0259n haray \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n avazlar
\nHal\u0131m\u0131za yanacaq,
\nV\u0259 ya \u00fcsuli-c\u0259hd il\u0259 qulaq de\u015f\u0259c\u0259k?
\n\u201cTarix\u00e7il\u0259r\u201d t\u0259z\u0259 bir s\u00f6z dey\u0259c\u0259k,
\nYoxsa yen\u0259 gor e\u015f\u0259c\u0259k?
\nD\u0259d\u0259 vay! \u015eeytana papu\u015f tik\u0259n mindilli qulbe\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r
\nG\u00f6r\u0259n yen\u0259 dir\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r?
\nYen\u0259 k\u0259l\u0259k g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k, yumruq altda \u0259zil\u0259c\u0259k?
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn bu i\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259n sonra,
\nz\u00fchr ed\u0259rs\u0259 \u015feir yazan bir s\u0259rs\u0259ri
\nBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bir\u0259lli tutar, iki\u0259lli?
\nS\u0259rb\u0259st yazar, qafiy\u0259li?
\nG\u00fcld\u0259n, b\u00fclb\u00fcld\u0259n, yardan, xo\u015f g\u00fcnd\u0259n yazar,
\nbada getmi\u015f \u00f6m\u00fcrd\u0259n?
\n\u018fc\u0259ba, \u0130\u015fl\u0259r bu yer\u0259 yetinc\u0259, ba\u015f redaktor yeti\u015finc\u0259
\nK\u00f6lg\u0259sind\u0259n qorxub qa\u00e7anm\u0131 olar, haqqa qap\u0131 a\u00e7anm\u0131?
\nT\u0259nqid, \u00fcst\u0259g\u0259l h\u0259d\u0259fl\u0259r! Bu radikal alt\u0131nda
\nYen\u0259 kiml\u0259r \u0259zil\u0259c\u0259k?
\nYen\u0259 eyni m\u00fc\u0259llifl\u0259r, yetim-yesir \u201ch\u0259rifl\u0259r\u201d,
\nV\u0259 ya \u0259zizx\u0259l\u0259fl\u0259r?..
\nN\u00f6vb\u0259 nec\u0259?\u201dA\u011f qanadl\u0131\u201dkitablar\u2026
\nS\u0259kkiz il\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar, ya s\u0259kkiz aya?
\nYoxsa i\u015fl\u0259r yen\u0259 bu c\u00fcr qalacaq, ay\u0259?!
\nBu t\u0259m\u0259nnada \u0259g\u0259r, q\u0259mli \u015feirl\u0259r yaz\u0131larsa,
\noxunmas\u0131na
\nBar\u0131 F\u00fczuli meydan\u0131ndan
\n\u0130zn veril\u0259c\u0259kmi?..
\nB\u0259b\u0259yimizin k\u0259d\u0259ri, a\u011f yollar\u0131n a\u011f izi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259c\u0259kmi?
\n\u2026 L\u0259l c\u0259vahirim, \u0259n parlaq \u00fcz\u00fcy\u00fcm, YER \u00dcZ\u00dcM!
\nT\u00fck \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 durub d\u00fcnya. De ki haqqa-imana g\u0259lsinl\u0259r.
\nT\u00fck \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 duran d\u00fcnyada, canavar t\u0259k cana var\u0131b,
\nb\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259rin \u2026 bir-birini t\u0259kl\u0259m\u0259sinl\u0259r!
\n\u201cT\u0259kl\u0259-m\u0259kan\u201d*\u2026 qalar\u0131q. N\u0259 varsa x\u0259rcl\u0259mi\u015fik.
\nOlanlar\u0131-qalanlar\u0131 bu c\u00fcr h\u0259rcm\u0259rclik il\u0259
\n\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u00f6z \u0259limizl\u0259, d\u0259r\u0259 dibin\u0259 salar\u0131q!
\nS\u00f6zd\u00fc dedim.
\nM\u0259n d\u0259 el\u0259 bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n bir ki\u00e7icik paras\u0131yam.
\nG\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259ri \u00f6z y\u00fck\u00fcm\u00fcn hambal\u0131yamsa,<\/p>\n
*T\u0259kl\u0259-m\u0259kan- \u00c7ind\u0259 uy\u011fur eli.<\/p>\n
Gec\u0259l\u0259ri sarban olub, bu d\u0259rdl\u0259ri ax\u0131 ney\u00e7\u00fcn,
\nHara, niy\u0259, n\u0259 vaxtad\u0259k s\u00fcr\u00fcb aparas\u0131yam?!\u2026
\n1983
\n\u018fS\u0130R D\u00dc\u015e\u018fN S\u018fR\u00c7\u018fN\u0130N HEKAY\u018fT\u0130<\/p>\n
\u2026 \u018fsir d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc bu qu\u015f m\u0259n\u0259,
\nG\u0259ldi d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc \u0259ll\u0259rim\u0259.
\nOvuc boyda bir qu\u015fdu,
\nSin\u0259d\u0259nmi vurulmu\u015fdu,
\n\u00abD\u0259n d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u00fc\u00bbdavas\u0131nda
\nbas\u0131l\u0131b m\u0259\u011flub olmu\u015fdu?
\nHe\u00e7 c\u00fcr ba\u015f a\u00e7a bilm\u0259dim,
\nYonuq-yonuq olmu\u015fdu!
\nAmma zil qara g\u00f6zl\u0259ri
\ndip-diriydi,
\n\u00c7evik-\u00e7evik
\nsa\u011fa-sola \u00e7evrilirdi.
\nAd\u0131 S\u0259r\u00e7\u0259 idi,
\ncik-cik cikkild\u0259yirdi,
\n\u00d6z\u00fc ovcumdan ki\u00e7ikdi,
\nh\u0259rb\u0259-zorba g\u0259lirdi. \u2013
\nZ\u0259rif, s\u0131caq cayna\u011f\u0131n\u0131
\nvar g\u00fcc\u00fcyl\u0259 ili\u015fdirir,
\nDimdiyini i\u015fl\u0259dir,
\nDi\u015fl\u0259yir, didi\u015fdirir,
\n\u018fll\u0259rimin \u0259tin didir,
\nzorla azadl\u0131q ist\u0259yir,
\nm\u0259ni burax deyirdi!
\n\u2026 Ax o\u011ful, ax o\u011ful!!!
\nB\u0259s niy\u0259 s\u0259n,
\nS\u0259ni \u0259sir ed\u0259n\u0259
\nM\u0259dhiyy\u0259 deyirs\u0259n?
\nYaltaqlan\u0131b b\u00fcz\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr,
\n\u00dcst-\u00fcst\u0259 \u0259sir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u0259n?
\n\u00c7\u00fcnki s\u0259n,
\nbir s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r deyils\u0259n!
\n\u00abOlum, ya \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00bbdey\u0259
\nd\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc o s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259.
\n\u00abCik-cikli\u00bb bir s\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f il\u0259
\ns\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc o s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259.
\nS\u0259r\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 bax, s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259y\u0259!
\nC\u0259sar\u0259ti divc\u0259y\u0259! \u2026
\n\u2026A\u00e7d\u0131m ovuclar\u0131m\u0131,
\n\u018ffsus..
\nSin\u0259sind\u0259n vurulmu\u015fdu.
\nHe\u00e7 d\u0259 yaras\u0131ndan deyil,
\n\u018fsirlikd\u0259n t\u00fc\u011fyan ed\u0259n
\no s\u0259rc\u0259\u00e7ik
\nK\u00f6ks \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb
\nbo\u011fulmu\u015fdu!
\n1988
\nJAL\u018fM\u018f<\/p>\n
Kimin g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin almazlar\u0131yd\u0131 bu bel\u0259,
\n\u0130\u015fart\u0131s\u0131 qama\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131 d\u00fcnyan\u0131?
\nKimin dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcyd\u00fc, bu bel\u0259,
\n\u00c7\u0259hray\u0131s\u0131 \u00e7a\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131 d\u00fcnyan\u0131?
\nQ\u0131z\u0131m, quzum, \u00e7\u0259m\u0259nim Jal\u0259min!
\nM\u0259kt\u0259bin\u0259-d\u0259rsin\u0259 bir \u00e7anta \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259
\n\u0130ki \u00e7anta d\u0259ft\u0259r-kitab da\u015f\u0131yan \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yim,
\n\u018fla\u00e7\u0131 g\u00f6y\u00e7\u0259yimin t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcd\u00fcr, bu bel\u0259!
\nOy, s\u0259n m\u0259nim qu qu\u015fum! Bitm\u0259y\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259m\u2026
\n\u0130ncid\u0259r \u00e7iyinl\u0259rini \u0130TA\u018fT!\u2026 Qorxuram, balacam,
\nM\u0259n s\u0259ni g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kd\u0259 D\u00f6vl\u0259tin
\n\u201cfara\u011fat \u00e7inovniki\u201d \u2013 m\u0259muru deyil d\u0259,
\nM\u0259n s\u0259ni D\u00f6vl\u0259tin i\u00e7ind\u0259
\n\u201cAdam!\u201d g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m, \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259! M\u0259l\u0259yim\u2026
\nY\u0259ni ki, i\u00e7\u0259ri q\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259ri daha asan qavrayan
\nH\u0259ssas(!)\u2026 bir inikas, insan\u0131 \u00e7\u0259rl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259n M\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259 \u2013
\nT\u0259z\u0259 \u0130nsan arzu edir\u0259m s\u0259ni!
\n\u2026Oy, m\u0259n bildim n\u0259 dedim, bitm\u0259y\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259m\u2026
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259ri almaz qama\u015f\u0131,
\nQu qu\u015fum! B\u00fcllurum!
\nO Mehrabdan ucalasan, in\u015fallah!
\n\u018fn g\u00f6y\u00e7\u0259k Jal\u0259ciy\u2026
\n5 oktyabr 1978
\nCAN DURNALAR, QORXURSUZMU?<\/p>\n
\u00d6l\u00fcm el\u0259 m\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u00fcm,
\nqocaltd\u0131 durnalar m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n
Ordan bura, burdan ora k\u00f6\u00e7\u0259-k\u00f6\u00e7\u0259,
\nhe\u00e7\u0259-pu\u00e7a gedir ax\u0131
\n\u00e7\u0259tin h\u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f yuvalar.<\/p>\n
Ne\u00e7in c\u0259hd edir onlar
\nt\u0259rki-v\u0259t\u0259n olma\u011fa
\nNe\u00e7in ax\u0131 geri baxm\u0131r,
\nk\u00f6\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 q\u0259rib durnalar?<\/p>\n
Qorxurlarm\u0131?\u2026 Yuxuda diksinirl\u0259rmi?
\nCan durnalar, qorxursuzmu?
\nYuxuda diksinirsizmi?
\nOnda m\u0259ni d\u0259 apar\u0131n\u2026<\/p>\n
Qadan\u0131z\u0131 al\u0131m el\u0259,
\nA\u011fam \u018fb\u00fclf\u0259z haqq\u0131
\nhe\u00e7 b\u0131r d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 dem\u0259r\u0259m:
\n\u201cqay\u0131dars\u0131z bir d\u0259 ha\u00e7an durnalar!\u201d\u2026
\n27 oktyabr 2002<\/p>\n
H\u018fN\u018fK<\/p>\n
Nolar, Qurbanoldu\u011fum,
\nYuxar\u0131dan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131
\nbir k\u0259r\u0259 huylansanam!
\nBir k\u0259r\u0259 d\u0259
\nQay\u0131m qulaylansanam!
\nHuylan\u0131b-qulaylan\u0131b,
\nbunlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131
\nqovzay\u0131b ba\u015f\u0131ndan yuxar\u0131
\nbir k\u0259r\u0259m\u0259 c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m\u0259 vasil edib
\nbeynimizi-ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, yediyimiz \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yi,
\nsuyu, havan\u0131, d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259-tavan\u0131
\nbu \u201c\u018fcinn\u0259\u2026 D\u0259st\u0259si\u201d-
\n\u201cK\u00fcy Ordusu\u201d sif\u0259tind\u0259n,
\n\u018fntiqf\u00fcru\u015f \u201cnatiql\u0259rd\u0259n\u201d
\nbir k\u0259r\u0259m\u0259 azad edib,
\nbizi rahat buraxsanam!!!
\nNolar, Qurbanoldu\u011fum,
\nHomer yapd\u0131 ye bunu!
\nOnun\u00e7un da Yunan onun
\nB\u0259b\u0259ksiz heyk\u0259lini
\nBasd\u0131 \u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc, biz\u0259,
\nS\u0259ninkini dik\u0259ltm\u0259di!
\nOnun\u00e7un da bizd\u0259 yaln\u0131z
\nbir heyk\u0259l dik\u0259lm\u0259d\u0259\u2026
\nS\u0259ninkini yada salmaq?
\nEl\u0259 \u015fey yoxdu bizd\u0259, a p\u0259yandaz oldu\u011fum!
\nBir huylan!!!
\nHe\u00e7 olmasa h\u0259n\u0259k-h\u0259n\u0259k
\nax\u0131rda bir d\u0259y\u0259n\u0259k yapsanam!
\nNolar, Qurbanoldu\u011fum,
\n\u00d6l\u00fcr \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcz-g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcz,
\nvaxt\u0131m\u0131z\u2026
\nBel\u0259 bizim taxt\u0131m\u0131za, baxt\u0131m\u0131za min yaz\u0131q!
\nA, Q\u0131rbanoldu\u011fum!
\nB\u018fS K\u0130MD\u018fN DANI\u015eAQ?<\/p>\n
Nu\u015fu n\u0259n\u0259 \u015f\u0259k\u0259rbura b\u00fck\u0259 b\u00fck\u0259
\ndeyir ki:
\nAd\u0259m il\u0259 H\u0259vvan\u0131n \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn ki\u015fi m\u0259l\u0259kl\u0259r
\ntuman\u00e7aq g\u0259z\u0259rmi\u015f.
\nBuluddan ya\u015fmaq tutub,
\nBulud p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259n pusanda,
\nH\u0259vva da uduzmad\u0131.
\nKi\u015fiy\u0259 \u0259r\u0259 getdi.
\nB\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 soru\u015fdu:
\nEl\u0259dirs\u0259, b\u0259s onda
\nH\u0259vva niy\u0259 qarn\u0131ndan
\nOn faiz Ad\u0259m balas\u0131,
\nh\u0259\u015ftad faiz
\n\u015fik\u0259st bo\u015faltd\u0131 Yer\u0259?
\n\u2013 Ay balam, s\u00f6zd\u00fc d\u0259\u2026 F\u0131rland\u0131\u2026
\nB\u0259s kimd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015faq?<\/p>\n
G\u018fL\u0130RL\u018fR<\/p>\n
\u018fst\u0259\u011ff\u00fcrullax, Xudam!
\nN\u0259rdivan qoyublar,
\nS\u0259n\u0259 do\u011fru \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rlar!
\nPill\u0259l\u0259ri cunquli f\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131,
\nbombarabatay qumbara,
\nz\u0131nq\u0131rov, d\u00fcmbeyl\u0259 qalx\u0131rlar
\nBasabasd\u0131r pill\u0259l\u0259r
\nEhey\u2026. Ki\u015fi!
\nMilyard ya\u015fl\u0131 g\u00f6yd\u0259ki
\n\u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259n mu\u011fayat ol,
\nG\u0259lirl\u0259r\u2026<\/p>\n
2003<\/p>\n
\u018fS\u0130R D\u00dc\u015e\u018fN S\u018fR\u00c7\u018fN\u0130N HEKAY\u018fT\u0130<\/p>\n
\u2026 \u018fsir d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc bu qu\u015f m\u0259n\u0259,
\nG\u0259ldi d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc \u0259ll\u0259rim\u0259.
\nOvuc boyda bir qu\u015fdu,
\nSin\u0259d\u0259nmi vurulmu\u015fdu,
\n\u00abD\u0259n d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u00fc\u00bbdavas\u0131nda
\nbas\u0131l\u0131b m\u0259\u011flub olmu\u015fdu?
\nHe\u00e7 c\u00fcr ba\u015f a\u00e7a bilm\u0259dim,
\nYonuq-yonuq olmu\u015fdu!
\nAmma zil qara g\u00f6zl\u0259ri
\ndip-diriydi,
\n\u00c7evik-\u00e7evik
\nsa\u011fa-sola \u00e7evrilirdi.
\nAd\u0131 S\u0259r\u00e7\u0259 idi,
\ncik-cik cikkild\u0259yirdi,
\n\u00d6z\u00fc ovcumdan ki\u00e7ikdi,
\nh\u0259rb\u0259-zorba g\u0259lirdi. \u2013
\nZ\u0259rif, s\u0131caq cayna\u011f\u0131n\u0131
\nvar g\u00fcc\u00fcyl\u0259 ili\u015fdirir,
\nDimdiyini i\u015fl\u0259dir,
\nDi\u015fl\u0259yir, didi\u015fdirir,
\n\u018fll\u0259rimin \u0259tin didir,
\nzorla azadl\u0131q ist\u0259yir,
\nm\u0259ni burax deyirdi!
\n\u2026 Ax o\u011ful, ax o\u011ful!!!
\nB\u0259s niy\u0259 s\u0259n,
\nS\u0259ni \u0259sir ed\u0259n\u0259
\nM\u0259dhiyy\u0259 deyirs\u0259n?
\nYaltaqlan\u0131b b\u00fcz\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr,
\n\u00dcst-\u00fcst\u0259 \u0259sir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u0259n?
\n\u00c7\u00fcnki s\u0259n,
\nbir s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r deyils\u0259n!
\n\u00abOlum, ya \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00bbdey\u0259
\nd\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc o s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259.
\n\u00abCik-cikli\u00bb bir s\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f il\u0259
\ns\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc o s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259.
\nS\u0259r\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 bax, s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259y\u0259!
\nC\u0259sar\u0259ti divc\u0259y\u0259! \u2026
\n\u2026A\u00e7d\u0131m ovuclar\u0131m\u0131,
\n\u018ffsus..
\nSin\u0259sind\u0259n vurulmu\u015fdu.
\nHe\u00e7 d\u0259 yaras\u0131ndan deyil,
\n\u018fsirlikd\u0259n t\u00fc\u011fyan ed\u0259n
\no s\u0259rc\u0259\u00e7ik
\nK\u00f6ks \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb
\nbo\u011fulmu\u015fdu!
\nAh, \u0259fsus,
\nO S\u0259r\u00e7\u0259-n\u0259r\u00e7\u0259y\u0259!
\nC\u0259sar\u0259ti divc\u0259y\u0259!
\nH\u00f6km\u00fcmd\u0259 olsayd\u0131, \u0259g\u0259r
\nbir m\u0259rm\u0259r da\u015f oyar,
\nOna m\u0259n abid\u0259 qoyard\u0131m.<\/p>\n
1988<\/p>\n
V\u018fT\u018fN!<\/p>\n
S\u0259ni
\nta
\nq\u0259dimd\u0259n tan\u0131y\u0131ram.
\nV\u0259t\u0259n!
\nS\u0259ni
\nq\u0259d\u0259mind\u0259n tan\u0131y\u0131ram.
\nDa\u015f-torpa\u011f\u0131n b\u0259lli m\u0259n\u0259.
\nG\u00f6yl\u0259rin t\u0259s\u0259lli m\u0259n\u0259.
\n\u00d6m\u00fcr yolun n\u0259 g\u00f6yn\u0259mli!
\n\u0130tib getmi\u015f
\nbir qar\u0131\u015f\u0131na da
\ng\u00f6yn\u0259m\u0259li.
\nD\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259
\nqalxan tutan,
\nq\u0131l\u0131nc \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n,
\nyadlar\u0131na
\nqan udduran,
\ntoy tutduran
\nulular\u0131n
\nBu g\u00fcn \u00e7imirsiz gec\u0259l\u0259rimd\u0259n
\nboyland\u0131lar.
\nKi\u015filik! M\u0259rdlik
\nd\u0259bilq\u0259sind\u0259n
\nmis r\u0259ngin\u0259
\nboyand\u0131lar.
\nV\u0259t\u0259n!
\ns\u0259ni
\nbe\u015fik ba\u015f\u0131ndak\u0131
\nlaylalardan \u00fczm\u00fc\u015f idik,
\n\u00fcz\u0259c\u0259yik!
\nV\u0259t\u0259n!
\nS\u0259nin
\nqap\u0131larm\u0131
\nd\u0259mirl\u0259rd\u0259n d\u00fczm\u00fc\u015f idik,
\nd\u00fcz\u0259c\u0259yik!<\/p>\n
B\u0130R YIR\u011eALI N\u018fNN\u0130YL\u018f GED\u018fC\u018fY\u0130K D\u00dcNYADAN<\/p>\n
Bu d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259li\u015fi
\nbir y\u0131r\u011fal\u0131 n\u0259nni il\u0259 ba\u015flanan insan!
\nBir y\u0131r\u011fal\u0131 n\u0259nniyl\u0259 d\u0259
\nged\u0259c\u0259yik d\u00fcnyadan.
\nKi\u00e7ik n\u0259nnimizd\u0259 insan g\u0259li\u015fi,
\nB\u00f6y\u00fck n\u0259nnimizd\u0259 insan gedi\u015fi\u2026
\nBu qoca d\u00fcnyadan
\nbir a\u011fac\u0131 yonub
\nbu n\u0259nnini qay\u0131ran da \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fck,
\nlaylas\u0131na
\n\u0259z\u0259l bayat\u0131 s\u00f6yl\u0259yib,
\nsonra a\u011f\u0131 deyib
\nbir ac\u0131 g\u00f6yn\u0259m il\u0259
\ntopra\u011f\u0131n ri\u015f\u0259sind\u0259n
\nay\u0131ran da \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fck.
\nQoruyaq d\u00fcnyam\u0131z\u0131
\nq\u0131l k\u00f6rp\u00fcl\u00fc \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u0259rd\u0259n
\nqoruyaq, insanlar, qoruyaq!
\n\u018fsla yamanl\u0131q deyil,
\nyax\u015f\u0131l\u0131q arayaq.
\nK\u00fcr\u0259miz ki, sudan boldur,
\nart\u0131q ya\u015fla dolmas\u0131n.
\nK\u00fcr\u0259mizin gedi\u015fi k\u0259d\u0259r
\nB\u00f6y\u00fck n\u0259nnil\u0259ri laz\u0131m olmas\u0131n.<\/p>\n
M\u018fN\u018f SOYUQDUR, G\u00dcN\u018f\u015e\u2026<\/p>\n
G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f!.. M\u0259n\u0259 soyuqdur
\nAx\u0131 m\u0259n q\u00fctb\u0259 ged\u0259n t\u0259k g\u0259minin
\nm\u0259zlum m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259sin\u0259 d\u00f6z\u00fcms\u00fcz oluram.
\nAx\u0131 \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcr\u0259m m\u0259n h\u0259rd\u0259n
\nazad qanad yoluna at\u0259\u015f a\u00e7an
\nzal\u0131m ov\u00e7u \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n.
\n\u2026 G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fim! Tez-tez r\u00f6yalar\u0131mdasan!
\nBir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 x\u0259yal\u0131mda
\ns\u0259ninl\u0259 \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259,
\nqucaqla\u015f\u0131b demi\u015fdim:
\nM\u0259hv\u0259\u015fim! At\u0259\u015fim! Sahib dur!..
\nM\u0259\u015fum toxunur h\u0259r \u015fey.
\n\u00c7\u0259k m\u0259ni, apar m\u0259ni.
\nApar, apar!\u2026\u2026
\nYerd\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 yaman soyuqdur, G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f!<\/p>\n
OX, XUDAV\u018fND\u0130N D\u0130VAN\u018f M\u018fXLUQU!
\n(\u0130ndi \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n g\u0259z\u0259n torpa\u011f\u0131mza)<\/p>\n
Qay\u0131tma, qartal, qay\u0131tma!
\nQay\u0131tma, qoca qartal, qay\u0131tma!
\nO qaya daha s\u0259ninki deyil!
\nArt\u0131q orda
\ns\u0259nin \u00e7\u0259tirli yuvanda
\n\u00e7il-\u00e7il\u2026 ala qar\u011falar
\nyumurtalar qoydular.
\nQay\u0131tma, qoca qartal,qay\u0131tma!
\nP\u0259ri\u015fan olarsan.
\nAx\u0131 yuvan indi orda \u2013
\nda\u011f\u0131n\u0131q\u2026 v\u0259 m\u0259\u015fum!..
\n\u2026Ox, Xudav\u0259ndin divan\u0259 m\u0259xluqu,
\nAsimanda bir zaman
\nV\u0131y\u0131ldayan \u0259n h\u00fcnd\u00fcr haval\u0131!
\nYox, qay\u0131tma! D\u0259rd ver\u0259r sars\u0131nt\u0131.
\nAx\u0131 s\u0259nin \u00e7\u0259p\u0259rsiz o Qaya M\u0259sk\u0259nini
\n\u00d6z\u0259ll\u0259\u015fdirdi art\u0131q qar\u0131lt\u0131lar hasar\u0131!-
\n\u2026B\u0259li, b\u0259li, ba\u015fdan-ba\u015fa vahim\u0259dir,
\nQar-qardan savay\u0131 qand\u0131qlar\u0131
\nolmayan h\u0259yat bihud\u0259l\u0259ri!
\n\u2026Oy, qartal!
\nQayalar f\u00fcsunu!
\nEl\u0259 m\u0259hzun zill\u0259nm\u0259! Bin\u0259va!..
\nYoxdur daha s\u0259nin o Ulu Yuvan!
\nA\u011flatma!..
\nA\u011flatma qoca qartal!..
\nA\u011flatma\u2026<\/p>\n
2014<\/p>\n
APAR M\u018fN\u0130, APAR<\/p>\n
M\u0259n gedir\u0259m axar \u00e7aya dey\u0259m ki,
\nM\u0259nim sadiq yar\u0131m ol,
\nAl m\u0259ni d\u0259 qoynuna,
\napar get.<\/p>\n
M\u0259n gedir\u0259m axar \u00e7aya dey\u0259m ki,
\nM\u0259n burda dar\u0131x\u0131ram, \u00f6gey kimiy\u0259m sanki.
\nApar m\u0259ni uzaqdak\u0131 m\u0259crana,
\n\u00d6rt \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fc \u00e7\u0131nq\u0131l-m\u0259rcanlar\u0131nla,
\nApar, get.
\nK\u00f6n\u00fcl yaman s\u0131x\u0131l\u0131r\u2026<\/p>\n
Apar get, \u0259n d\u0259rin d\u0259rya\u00e7ana
\nO s\u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259\u2026p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lda s\u0259n ona.
\nDe ki, asimanla aran\u0131zda qalacaq
\nM\u0259nim s\u0259n\u0259 sonuncu dedikl\u0259rim.<\/p>\n
Apar get\u2026
\nApar, apar,
\nYadlardan yorulmu\u015fam, a\u015fiyan ol,
\nS\u0259rinlik ist\u0259yir can\u2026
\nApar, m\u0259ni d\u0259 apar!
\nDaha k\u00f6n\u00fcl q\u0259hr edir.
\nApar, apar!
\nAxar \u00e7ay\u2026<\/p>\n
2014<\/p>\n
D\u00dcNYA \u00c7IXIB YADIMDAN<\/p>\n
Tanr\u0131m, ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla m\u0259ni,
\nd\u00fcnya \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b yad\u0131mdan.
\nHe\u00e7 bilmir\u0259m s\u0259ma harda, yer harda?
\n\u0130nsanlar hardad\u0131r, m\u0259n harda?
\nT\u0259kc\u0259 \u0130sa M\u0259sihin
\n\u00c7aharm\u0131x edam\u0131nda o saralan \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259si
\nAs\u0131l\u0131b eyvan\u0131mdan, \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcr b\u0259b\u0259kl\u0259rim\u0259,
\n\u00c7\u0259kilmir x\u0259yal\u0131mdan.
\nBir d\u0259 ki, zavall\u0131n\u0131n
\n\u201ccan\u0131m \u00f6l\u00fcmc\u00fcl d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259rlidir\u201d-nal\u0259si!
\nNisgil t\u0259bili d\u00f6y\u00fcr m\u0259nim
\nm\u00fct\u0259\u0259ssir\u2026 qulaqlar\u0131mda\u2026<\/p>\n
2014
\nQALX GED\u018fK EV\u0130M\u0130Z\u018f\u2026<\/p>\n
N\u0259 dal\u011f\u0131n dalm\u0131san,
\n\u00dcz\u00fc dumanl\u0131 d\u0259niz\u0259.
\nKe\u00e7ib \u0259yl\u0259\u015fs\u0259m yan\u0131nda,
\nM\u0259ni sez\u0259 bil\u0259rmis\u0259n?<\/p>\n
\u018fmin ol, soru\u015fmaram,
\nsoru\u015fmaram m\u0259n s\u0259nd\u0259n
\nNec\u0259s\u0259n?
\nRuzigar\u0131n hans\u0131 yerd\u0259?<\/p>\n
Lakin d\u00fcn\u0259n s\u0259n r\u00f6yamda
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259n \u00f6p\u0259r\u0259k
\nH\u00f6nk\u00fcr\u00fcb soru\u015fmu\u015fdun:
\nNe-c\u0259-s\u0259n?.. M\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flayarsanm\u0131?
\nM\u0259n cavab verm\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259
\nS\u0259n o m\u0259\u015fum yuxuda
\nYa\u011f\u0131\u015fl\u0131 asimana qar\u0131\u015fanda
\nP\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldam\u0131\u015fd\u0131n dey\u0259s\u0259n m\u0259nim\u00e7in yava\u015fdan:
\n\u201cP\u0259rv\u0259rdigara, Tanr\u0131m, o nec\u0259 d\u0259 qocal\u0131b,
\nbu odurmu?\u201d demi\u015fd\u0131n.<\/p>\n
H\u0259, m\u0259n\u0259m, yan\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015f\u0259n,
\nYalq\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa t\u0259hvil verib getdiyin
\n\u201cTanr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259t ilah\u0259si!\u201d
\n\u2013 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n bi\u00e7ar\u0259!
\nH\u0259, m\u0259n\u0259m! P\u0259ri\u015fanam,
\nEl\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259 bir s\u0259nin\u00e7in d\u0259rin q\u00fcss\u0259d\u0259!
\n\u2026Ox, qalx ged\u0259k\u2026ya\u011f\u0131\u015fl\u0131 asimana-
\no talvar\u0131n alt\u0131na! \u2013 Evimiz\u0259!..
\nYuyum orda g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin n\u0259mini,
\n\u018fl g\u0259zdirim sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n q\u0259min\u0259,
\nbir Allah e\u015fqi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn!
\nAncaq soru\u015fmayaca\u011fam m\u0259n s\u0259nd\u0259n:
\nNe-c\u0259-s\u0259n..?
\n\u018fmin\u2026 ol\u2026
\n\u2026Ox, qalx ged\u0259k\u2026 ya\u011f\u0131\u015fl\u0131 asimana-
\no talvar\u0131n alt\u0131na! \u2013 Evimiz\u0259!..<\/p>\n
2014<\/p>\n
\u018fLL\u018fR\u0130M YOXDUR<\/p>\n
Yoxdur k\u00f6n\u00fcl ba\u011f\u00e7a-ba\u011f\u0131m,
\nq\u00f6n\u00e7\u0259 yoxdur, l\u0259\u00e7\u0259k yoxdur,
\nyoxdur \u015f\u0259bg\u00fcl \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rim,
\nanam yoxdur, atam yoxdur,
\nda\u011f\u0131l\u0131bd\u0131r b\u00f6y\u00fck tifaq,
\nyoxdur quyu ehtivalar.<\/p>\n
\u018fll\u0259rimi uzad\u0131ram,
\nYoxdur h\u00fcnd\u00fcr ba\u011f\u00e7a-ba\u011f\u0131m,
\nq\u0131z\u0131lg\u00fcll\u0259r onlar deyil,
\nyoxa \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b q\u0131z\u0131l q\u0259f\u0259s,
\nb\u00fclb\u00fcl yoxdur, tikan yoxdur,
\ntor \u0259lc\u0259yim tiftik-tiftik\u2026
\nalt\u0131nda \u0259ll\u0259rim yoxdur.<\/p>\n
2003
\n\u00c7A\u011eIRIB \u00c7A\u011eIRIB GED\u0130BL\u018fR<\/p>\n
O ged\u0259n
\nsarayd\u0131r\u2026
\nYeriyir, y\u0131x\u0131l\u0131r, itib-bat\u0131r dumanda,
\nQalx\u0131r, yen\u0259 a\u011far\u0131r, yeriyir, d\u0259rd
\nverir\u2026
\nO ged\u0259n harayd\u0131r!..
\nYax\u0131l\u0131r, da\u011f\u0131l\u0131r, itib-bat\u0131r dumanda,
\noyan\u0131r, \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r \u00e7\u0259n i\u00e7i!.. D\u0259rd verir\u2026<\/p>\n
O ged\u0259n
\nged\u0259nl\u0259rimdir m\u0259nim!
\nMehrab\u0131m, d\u0259rgah\u0131m, \u015f\u0259hr\u00fc-yar\u0131m, h\u0259m\u015f\u0259rim,
\nH\u0259m\u015f\u0259h\u0259rli did\u0259l\u0259rim, d\u0259d\u0259l\u0259rimdir m\u0259nim.<\/p>\n
Ged\u0259nl\u0259r
\nk\u00f6n\u00fcl abid\u0259l\u0259rim!-
\ns\u0259cd\u0259gah\u0131m, can evim, tayfam-tuyfam,
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